bittersweetescape

the beginning of everything

2010-04-28T08:08:00.000-07:00

And the prince turned out to be as crazy as the not-so-in- distress princess. The prince and the princess drank a few bottles of beer, got drunk, made out in front of a carriage-man, and the crazy love story begins. =p

-as narrated by mr. joseph manuel :)

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2010-04-28T08:00:00.000-07:00

Just a simple thought from my loving Joey...

And I have the Lord to thank that I get to meet u. I am at my best because of you :)

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I honestly could not ask for more since God has always blessed me with people who are so loving. My life was complete and happy but I never thought that I could be more happy since God made me realized the capabilities I have. Now, I know I have the capability to love a person with all my heart without any doubts or whatsoever.

This man made my life crazy yet it complements my completeness.

This man made me realized that loving is not just a feeling. It's the capability to show it....
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They say you got to kiss a lot of frogs before you find the prince... well in my case, I had found my prince who happens to be an insane-ass like me.hahahaha!:))))
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I love you so so so so much, joey!!!

life is different without you...

2010-01-14T18:02:00.000-08:00

life is extra monotonous without you. I just miss having crazy fun times and emo times together even if we look insane or ridiculous! Seggy, best! I miss you! =( Muli na ka! here's something for you!

wait there's more!

and not only that

since we're kids at heart para sa tin yosi na yan!hahaha!:P

I miss you best! bff!!!:) I'm giving you all the lame fun reasons to go home here in pampanga!haha! yehey! uwi na si beckla sa 22!aha!:)

when i say goodbye... i really mean GOODBYE!

2010-01-14T17:01:00.000-08:00

i'll write my post in a very vernacular way! tagalog, english o capampangan man yan!la na ko pake! hay nako! I just can't believe that I happened to ditch someone who really mean SO much to me to the point na sinasabihan na ko na yung utak ko napunta na daw sa talampakan ko dahil sa katangahan ko... but then all stories must have their endings. And all sentences MUST have their periods at hindi ellipses.

December 31, 2009 - I was again WAITING IN FREAKIN' vain para sa text nung hombre na yun since it seems that the person somehow left a word few days before that... it was my birthday and i've got to admit that it was my loneliest birthday i've had so far... "MIPAKANANU ya kaya ing buguk???" (in tagalog? napano kaya yung gagong yun?) then my bestfriend told me the very hurtful and ugly truth na in fairness talaga, YUN NA ANG NAGPAGISING sa ken... kailangan ko lang siguro talaga ng bonggang pukpok para dun... madami na daw akong pinalampas.

My so-called lame excuse? eh tinatry ko naman makipagdate sa iba but very unfortunate lang talaga na di nagwowork... (buti di pa dumating sa point na maniwala na ko sa destiny!bwahahaha!)

Getting back, ayun i said NO FORMAL GOODBYES! basta GOOD BYE kung GOODBYE! ang daming beses ko ng sinabing goodbye sa kanya pero wala naman nanyayari... kaya nung dumating 12 am january 01, 2010, DELETE GALORE ang baklita sa lahat lahat! delete galore ko siya sa FACEBOOK, yahoo messenger, sa phone ko, sa email ko, at pati sa friendster na matagal ko ng di binubuksan.

Bakit? Let's put it this way. 2010 na! magbagong buhay na! game over na dapat kung game over. and i have run out of reason to talk to him so why bother di ba?haha! and mas maganda na rin na wala akong naririnig o nakikita tungkol sa kanino man tungkol sa kanya.WHATEVER! HAHA! that's an old school theraphy called IWAS PUSOY!haha! and besides, im super used and was happy even if he was not around... I just hate making things complicated or I just hate the phrase "it's complicated". ayoko lang talaga ng mga komplikadong bagay sa masaya't tahimik kong buhay.haha! and no more reason to hold on...

BITTERNESS IS THE BEST POLICY?? excuse me! hahaha! sa una OO! pero ngayon hindi na! hahaha! after I did those deleting thing, i felt some relieveness within my system. Feeling ko tama lang ginawa ko at dapat matagal ko na daw ginawa yun. and I just happened to discern na ayoko pala sa ABS-BITTER HERBS and kay BITTER OCAMPO!hahahaha!

At dahil dyan may nagtext:

yeah right! that was january 02, 2010 when that "person" greeted me a happy birthday... at siyempre number na lang yun. hehe! at the back of my mind, nag greet pa tong taong to noh eh tapos na special day ko.haha! Oh well reply ng lola? Who's this? and when I got his response.. ayun that was really it. I did not say goodbye as in literally goodbye but Im so sorry for being a ruthless bitch for my response to him... I only did that to finally PUT A PERIOD in OUR story. Kung baga sa school subjects, WE HAVE CHEMISTRY BUT NOW WE ARE HISTORY! LOL!

krayola khomeini (cry cry) ang baklita but i said to myself that it will be fine... sometimes it's good to give up on something because I believe better opportunities will come my way. Yak! pang miss universe?? hahaha!

at least I realized di pala ako ganong ka-tangengot!hahahaha!

those freakin' 3 words

2009-12-27T08:53:00.000-08:00

I just happened to discern that I haven't told these three words to someone special for three years straight! beat that!hahahaha!:P

I still have a heart but I believe it's been obsolete for quite some time. wahaha!

sobrang cheesy talaga! LOL!

bored lang ako! :P

why do you let me stay here?

2009-11-21T10:09:00.000-08:00

I've been staying and running away from you all these years yet, you've never answered my question on why do you still letting me stay here somewhere?? I mean somewhere with you??ooops, you've never given me valid sensible answer. All of it were a shallow response. Errrr!

"Why don't you sit down right here and make me smile?" -from the song Why do you let me stay here by She and Him

naaaahhh... I'm just missing you so bad and I hope this kind of floating anxiety or whatever you call it will just pass by the moment I wake up; just like before so that I can't reminisce something about you. I just hate you for that!Errrr!

the so-called prayer and releasing some $%^&*

2009-11-04T08:27:00.000-08:00

I'm looking forward to finish school and to live life alone. ALL ALONE. It's hard to deal with people who are narrow minded and who can't discern things. There is no room for us to point fingers on what the F happened since the damage has already been done. Instead, why can't they look at the efforts that the person is making to correct that mistake? There's always a price for every action made. Endless regrets that MUST really end. Consequences that are priceless. Lessons learned that are timeless. Anyway, how much more do I have to pay for the sh*t I've made? I wish and pray God will strengthen my back, give me more courage and wisdom to work on payments for those debts of sh*t. Loads of prayers have been made and continuously being made for me to surpass all of these; praying everyday for those narrow minded crowds will be showered with enlightenment and realizations for both if us so that forgiveness will take place and resentments will come to an end. Lord, please grant my prayers as your gift for xmas, my b-day and new year!

OMG!

2009-08-22T19:56:00.000-07:00

I've been hell sick within these past few days... I hate being absent but most of the time I am not heck of a hypocrite if I admit that I no longer enjoy what I am doing and this is all about work... OMG! Would you believe I am taking my vitamins and as far as I know I eat the right amount of meals I have to take but still my blood pressure is too low (90/60) and on top of that, right now I got no voice, I am coughing so hard, having bad colds as well, fever and bruises! deym!!! I am thinking if I am going to quit work due to health reasons. Besides I'll be going back to school this 2nd sem as a promised that I left to my parents. jeeeezzzz!!!! God make me and my family healthy but not fat and sickly!!!! OMG!

self-proclamation

2009-08-22T19:24:00.001-07:00

I have to admit I am pretty procrastinating. I want to do things that will have best results during the end of the day or whatever. The problem is I always have this thing wherein courage is backing out of the picture thinking I might mess up again.

My status right now is still floating. Clueless. However, I am very glad that I have to face the things I escaped two or three years ago and face those people who had a VERY different perceptions against me. Anyway, I don't give a damn since I am not going to earn a dime from them or WHATEVER! At least I've already done the 1st step, right?

"Mabait ka na ba?" asked by one of the professors I've talk to. I just answered "Yes, matagal na po..."

Things changes but sometimes it's just a bit devastating when you left a bad mark that might last a lifetime and you never know if that kind of perception will still change. Does it matter? For people like me and my gayest bff we don't care at all since what matters most is we don't mess up anyones ass for no reason at all.

I've badly messed up my life way back. And as they say, you learn your lessons the hard way. For me it was the VERY HARD way. Now, I was just thinking twice thrice or 100 times before making a decision. Weighing those things thinking which is NOT good but questioning each scenarios what in the hell is the BETTER thing to do so that it can have a BETTER consequence/s in the future. I am still imperfect and I am not even attempting to be perfect. Being procrastinating is not that bad especially if you're just thinking about better things to do before doing it. And the reason behind that is because I just don't want a f*cked up life-again. GOT it??ha ha!

feelings nothing more but feelings

2009-08-22T19:08:00.000-07:00

nahhh...it is just a song but anyway it correlates with the topic I want to tackle here... It's just one of the blues clues that I have discerned as I am growing up. Haha! I never thought I could still progress myself in this way "growing up". ha ha ha! I fell in love with an "unsuitable" person and all these years I thought I still feel the same way... My brother and friend Tam was correct, "Emotions are so dynamic that it can change within a snap!" Oh well to cut these blog short, I just want to say- I ammmmm soooo overrrrr ittttt, darling! And I'm happy to inform this fact to the public especially to that person. Life is indeed funny. ha ha!=)

the frog!

2009-07-11T22:58:00.000-07:00

this is me kissing the freakin' frog!LOL! (feeling!)hahahaha!

this is a frog...bow!

I never thought I could kiss one new frog again after me and the previous frog messed up due to some issues we had... I honestly hate frogs (literal na frogs ha) but men are always like that... They are like freaking frogs that you should treat and perceive them as frogs. Simply because majority of them are worthless. Ooopss sorry sa iba dyan but I am not generalizing that ALL men are like sh*ts or frogs or whatsoever. It's just one of the misfortunes that I had been making a mistake kissing frogs because I know that they still have a good heart within them, that they might transform into being a prince... Sadly, they are still ASSHOLES!ha ha!

the tat...bow!

2009-07-09T00:17:00.000-07:00

I can't decide if I'm going to put that tattoo on or not... UNDECIDED!

Rencesism

2009-07-07T18:19:00.000-07:00

What if this is the picture I put in my resume?haha!

WILL YOU KINDLY TELL ME SOMETHING ABOUT YOURSELF THAT IS NOT WRITTEN IN YOUR RESUME???

(just imagine that the person interviewing me is taking a good look at my resume with pic.)

MA'M here are the reviews that people has for me... read it you @#%$^&^%&^%!!!google it if you want!haha!

The first EVER publication of Leona Clarence Marie was done last December of 1985. It sparkled of with an undoubted lady who has a very contradicting way of thinking, completely obnoxious, funny and yes weird. very weird.
She's brought a contemporary impromptu jokes and of course never ending arbitrary of gay lingos which has always been part of the new era. Somehow she managed to look young since she's rumored she drink the potion of youth that she stole somewhere. Her interests lie within the curiosity of the make up ingredients of the alcohol and how a tobacco and cigarette was made, as well as how do enormously bad people live, obsessing about her shoes, room, and cleaning them almost everyday, not sleeping at times and an extreme laid back person whom you may catch at any park or somebody else's house. (whatever!) But what really impresses people is her ability to endlessly talk and listen to others about anything under the sun and the moon and have a better discernment at the end of such conversations. Living the moment, karma believer and trying not to have so many regrets as possible or NOT ANYMORE REGRET IT about the past except GRRRRRRRRRRR (WHATEVER!)...that one timE a numerous frogs came.... grrrrr! carpe diem is what clarence is all about...You may have numerous perspectives but this is a person you will not definitely miss or set her aside. duh!haha!

"A really must meet!"
Rolling Stones

"One who has all the ingredients of a smart person"
Newsweek

'Clarence kicks my ass when it comes to magic and I congratulate her for that'
David Blaine

"The first lady who has all the characters of becoming a jackass"
Fiction Magazine

'Extremely funny, Extremely Hilarious...A must meet'
New York Times

"She can be my assistant"
Barack Obama

"She's got a very healthy appetite for obnoxiousness"
Hollywood Reporter

"She has all the potentials be the next Sarah Silverman. She blews me away."
Ellen Degeneres

"She is an ass!"
Sarah Silverman

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seriously???...

It's hard to have a description about oneself.. i believe I am numerous things being derived by numerous opinions.. one thing i am certain is that i'm ever evolving even at this very moment.. striving.. questioning.. savoring..

nakarelate daw oh!

2009-07-07T01:10:00.000-07:00

jham, tentay, mara, kit, and the rest of the loveless and sawi community, nakakarelate naman ako nung napanood ko tong pelikula na to... ginoogle ko pa mga linyang yan.hahaha! oh my...whatsoever!!!

ngek! talagang nakarelate ako... leche!haha! anyway it's just a sidecomment I made here para kay jham!!!

mga punchline na...

"i need space!"

"Mahal na mahal kita, at ang sakit-sakit na."

how do you move on?

"Ui ano 'yan?"

"Bagong baby ni Popoy"

"Ako naman ang may gusto nito diba? Pero bakit ang sakit-sakit?"

"Ang totoo hanggang ngayon umaasa parin ako na sabihin mong ako parin. Ako na lang. Ako na lang ulit."

"She loved me at my worst. You had me at my best. And you chose to break my heart."

"Ten years from now, ganito parin kaya tayo?"
"Ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen, fourteen, forever and ever!"
"Promise?"
"Promise."

"I don't even know kung tama 'tong ginagawa ko, pero alam ko kailangan ko nang tapusin 'to."
"Basha, mahal mo pa ba 'ko?"
"Poy, I'm so sorry."

When love ends...

"Five years? Itatapon mo lang lahat?"
"Kailangan ko to, kailangan mo rin."
"Pero ikaw ang kailangan ko."

"If kaya pang ayusin pilitin. What if this is really what both of you need? Then just be strong. Magiging mahirap at masakit pero hopefully all the pain will be worth it."

how long should you hold on?

"Five seconds lng. Promise. Five seconds. One, two, three, please, five."

how soon should you let go?

"Not so nice to meet you."
"Malaki lang ang katawan mo pero 'di mo ko kayang patumbahin!"

Mga Pamatay na Linya sa "One More Chance"
I wanna stop wondering what if. I wanna know what is.

But you're asking for too much. Gusto mo mawala na'ko sa buhay mo.

Alam mo ba'yung three month rule, ha?! Lahat ng nagmahal at nasaktan alam 'yun! Kailangan mo muna maghintay ng three months bago ka magka-boyfriend ulit! Ba't ba kating-kati kang palitan ako?! May dalawang linggo pa'ko, eh!

Mahal na mahal kita...At ang sakit-sakit na!

I wish I could talk away all that makes you hurt. But I can't because you won't let me.

Mahal mo pa ba siya?
Ayokong nakikitang nasasaktan.
(She reaches out and softly closes his eyes.) Para kung masaktan man ako, hindi mo makikita...Mahal mo pa ba siya?
(He starts to sob) I'm sorry.

and mga churvalung ganon...whatever! but this line has an impact for me...

"My personal favorite...

"Siguro kaya tayo iniiwanan ng mga mahal natin dahil may darating pang ibang mas magmamahal sa'tin - 'yung hindi tayo sasaktan at paasahin...'yung magtatama ng lahat ng mali sa buhay natin".

hmph!!! yun eh!!yun yon eh!

fukkin emo mode that sucks a big time!

2009-07-06T18:13:00.000-07:00

more blogs to come if and only if I'm not that sluggish to think, type or whatever... pretty heartsick right now... oh my effin God! I wanted to shout and everything for being such a big drunkard son of sissy beach! made a wrong move again, babe! but trying to forget it and not make such a big fukkin fuss about it but I am very ashamed for what happened... a divert therapy is a must. I don't need a another person to do the same thing all over again!!! God, I'm just so sick and tired of it... I can't fathom why I am having this kind of dismay right at this moment. I know it's my bad and I so admit my impulsive decision that led to a mistake... that right now... I'm afraid that "person" is GOING GOING GONE... :,(

a prayer...

2009-07-06T18:07:00.000-07:00

"I Ask God
To Give Me Courage To Accept The Things I Cannot Change,
The Strength To Change The Things I Can
And The Wisdom To Know The Difference"

hangover with milkshakes all these years!

2009-07-06T17:44:00.000-07:00

it is just one of these nights that i have these unbecoming thoughts of copying and pasting some lines that I found mesmerizing or simply intriguing. The author of the poem milkshakes is not definitely me. So, whoever is the writer or screenwriter of the movie Before Sunrise, my sincerest apologies. hehe!Anyway, I wouldn't post this if I don't find it beautiful. I read this poem a thousand times since I saw the movie.hehe..It was entitled MILKSHAKES since Celine (July Delpy) was drinking this beverage when she was walking along with Jesse (Ethan Hawke) then suddenly a stray poet approached them to give a title for a poem for him to write. In the end, they came up with these title Milkshakes... Before Sunrise is one of my favorite films and I give two-thumbs for it maybe because I am one of a heck of a frustrated lover around... jeeezzz! I hate to admit it but that is the truth...I'm still having my hopes up but no expecations to avoid devastation...haha!

Daydream delusion
Limousine Eyelash
Oh, baby with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wineglass
Look at those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweet cakes and MILKSHAKES (laughs)
I am a delusion angel
I am a fantasy parade
I want you to know what I think
Don't want you to guess anymore
You have no idea where I came from
We have no idea where we're going
Launched in life
Like branches in the river
Flowing downstream
Caught in the current
I'll carry you. You'll carry me
That's how it could be
Don't you know me
Don't you know me by now

morning shitty blues!

2009-07-06T17:29:00.000-07:00

Whoa! It took me really some time before updating this blog and majority of the articles I posted here were outdated. Pardon me for that! Updates? So far I got a new job and setting up my mind for new environment, not-so-new-people and of course new company. I apologize to some of the people if I told them different lame reasons behind my resignation but hope you do understand where I am coming from... LOL! I do love the company where I worked however due to some personal reasons, I ran out of motivation to go in for work and contemplated for a thousand times before making a final decision to just resign... I miss the people I worked with. I miss my co-senior reps, the agents I've handled and most of the people who were part of me during my stay... I really miss them a lot... *sigh!* I do believe that we still going to see each other or bump each other some time... a lot of things happened... still coping up with it... I just do hope and pray that all my endeavors will push through with the help of God... I'm glad I still have my family and friends with me who never fail to leave even if I always end up making the most absurd decisions in my life...*whew!*

my hang-over for before sunrise...

2009-07-06T17:23:00.000-07:00

As I was reading a script of a movie I watched a long time ago, these song which happened to be one of the soundtracks of the said movie simply caught me. Its quite hilarious who in the heck sang or compose this song.Its just a line from a song by the way!haha!=) nah...this is just a random sharing thought.haha!To fully understand these lines, better watch Before Sunrise.I can't think of anything else to say but anyhow here it is:

There's a wind that blows in from the north,
And it says that loving takes it's course.
Come here. Come here.
No I'm not impossible to touch,
I have never wanted you so much.
Come here. Come here.
Have I never lay down by your side?
Baby, let's forget about this pride.
Come here. Come here.
Well, I'm in no hurry.
You don't have to run away this time.
I know that you're jimmied,
But it's gonna be all right this time.

random act of boredom...haha!

2009-07-06T16:45:00.000-07:00

Can you name 13 people you can think of right off the top of your head?
Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 13 people...
This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first...No Cheating!!!

1. Seggy

2. T.j

3. Jhen
4. Sheila
5. Ross
6. Karen
7. J.s
8. Pekisha
9. Jhong
10. Aguilus

11. Buloy
12. Nikita
13. Tentay

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How did you meet 10?

Haha! I met him thru Karen at Starbucks taft way way back...hahaha! It was a very hilarious story kung pano kami nagmeet but that was a very good start of a friendship!

Have you ever seen 4 cry?

Not yet hehehe! and I don't want to see her cry since she is a very beautiful young lady syempre mana kay sieg!hahaha!

Would 11 and 2 make a good couple?

Wahahaha! I don't think so...hahahahha!

Are you good friends with 13?

Yep yep... she is my h.s bff!:)

Do you think 5 is cute?

She is hot but sorry she is soooo taken!hahahah!:p

Something about number 1?

Awwww... my very loving and so irreplaceable bestfriend!!!I thank God he came to my life!naks!!!:) love you beki!!!:)

How did you meet 8?

I met #8 during college days... she was my blockmate and my very good friend as well! a dedicated journalist!naks!

What's 7's favorite color?

Haha! I don't know since he does not have any color theme or whatsoever that I've seen since the time I met him!hahaha!

What would you do if 6 just confessed that they liked you?

Oh my effin God, karen!!! hahahaha! my h.d ka pala sa ken all these years?hahahahha!

Fact about 9?

Whoa!Aside from the fact that he loves pasta and pizza (as far as i remember), this guy has a very good soul and deserves a person who will truly love him... He is a special person for me... cheesy!haha!

What does 1 do for a living?

Hopefully a future milyonaryong NURSE!:)

Would you ever live with 12?

Why not???!!hahahaha!:)

Is 2 single?

Yes and I think he's not yet ready to mingle..hehehe!

Where does 7 live?

In manila since his work is based there... but he is originally from Bulacan..hehe!

What do you think about 2?

WE both love each other!love you bakla!!!

Whats the worst and best thing about 5?

The only worst thing was what happened way back but now we're good and we do still keep in touch...:)

Who is 11 going out with?

Hahaha! no one... I think?? Not sure about it... but he told me that he is going to see his ex to see if they can save something like friendship or beyond that..hehehe!

What do you like about number 3?

She is one heck of a funny person!hahahaha!

me and the pink hearts

2009-07-06T16:24:00.000-07:00

Let's sprinkle the hearts for the sweet people who truly deserve it!

How about matters of the heart?! We get whole again with someone special or let us put it this way that this person will complement your completeness as a human being which, in the end you will show everything specially the fact that he is the love of your life, but then how about you?? It sounds very devastating or even bitter if there is no one,right?! I did not only eat that bitterness, I believe I swallowed it as well including the pride. Bottom line is "No one deserves your grieving with someone you know who does not deserve it in the first place..."

Thank you for that person's honesty... May God bless that person for making me realize what the word worthy SHOULD BE!haha!

this is an outdated blog... i just posted it today...lol!

at last!

2009-04-10T21:53:00.000-07:00

I finally bid goodbye and let go of this person who already became a part of me... I've never felt this good after all these years from the time I met him... May God bless him and good luck for all his endeavors he wants to pursue. It's goodbye...

P.S: I'm finally smiling since I finally learned how to let go of a thing that makes me happy and at the same time brought some misery at the latter part of it in which, before my so-called-thought-happiness will leave me, I have to be proactively leave it first before it will hit me so bad again and end up being hurt. God is really good in making some realizations that can really take some time before I discern it. At last, I realize that I am not THAT stupid after all! :)

to all wave ONE!!!

2009-02-19T02:26:00.000-08:00

guys, happy anniversary to us!!!:) hehehe! from the temp site up to permanent site, we made it!yey! GOsh, ang mga pagpunta pa lang sa cr na mahigit 3 mins nun while training natin nun then the paint fumes na bonggang nakakahilo and the noise nung ginagawa ang mahiwaga nating site...wow!parang kelan lang ah! then remember the pink kutsinta and the almost 2 days or should i say 30 minute training sa flexpay??jeeezzz!haha! and TAKE NOTE:no y-jacks, and kahit ano pang eclavu na kasama nun!oh my GOd!haha! and remember the red hats from the U.S and iloilo and of course the mega liit pantry that we have na yung iba sa parking pa kumakain..grabe!hehehe!:) and remember the kick off summer party na after nun in-on set na tayo sa calls na parang mga nabuhusan ng tubig ang buong wave one?haha! there are so many changes..i miss those old days! ahhhh! basta one year na tayo!yun na yun! congratulations to all of us! and love you all!:) mwah!:)

23

2009-01-02T11:56:00.000-08:00

oo 23 na ako last december 31,2008! hanep! tanda ko na naman... thanks to all of the people who remembered my birthday! and of course I would to extend my sincerest thanks to all of the people who celebrated my birthday with me and yung mga taong nag-effort pa para bisitahin ako dito sobrang appreciate ko yun... no material thing can ever replace what you did... you know who are! hehehe!

there is this one person I would like to thank since he made his promise come true except for the doughnuts but it is very ok. hehe! ;p I appreciate every single second that you were here with me. You made my advance birthday bash worth it because of your presence and again not even cellos and krispy kreme doughnuts or whatever gifts can ever top that. hehehe! it was one of the happiest moments in life that I will never forget. :) I sincerely thank God for making a way for us to see and be with each other even if for just more than 24 hours after not seeing each other at all after almost two years. I missed you and I really do... it is pretty overwhelming. hehe! anyhow, you have a great 2009 ahead and of course more wealth, good health to you and your family.

and for all the people who was with me the whole time around, a big THANKS! and i love you all! God bless ya'll! =)

"another message to that person..."

you still have my heart in which, it travelled and encountered a lot of things yet no matter what happens, it goes home right to you... many thieves have attempted to steal it in their own means yet you still have your own ways and a spell not to give it to them...

belated happy 23rd birthday to me!yey!hahaha!

seasons greetings and welcome 2009!

2009-01-02T11:50:00.000-08:00

sorry late ang bati! ahahaha! anyhow belated happy xmas and a prosperous new year to all of you! hehehehe! ;p more walang kwentang blogs to come for all of my avid readers (if there is any...) hahaha!;p wish you all the happiness and successes in life!

xoxo

-Cla-

2009-01-02T11:34:00.000-08:00

The trouble with love is, it can tear you up inside, make your heart believe a lie, it's stronger than your pride, the trouble with love is, it doesn't care how fast you fall, and you can't refuse the call... See, you got no say at all...

-kelly clarkson

Maybe this is from the cynic's point of view of love. We all dream to have a fairy-tale-happy-ending with a prince or princess to save us from distress. However, what if that person will only bring you that kind of distress in your existence? What if that person who is supposedly your angel in disguise is also the devil who will mess up your ass and leave you hanging when the time you fall so fast... There are no freaking guarantees, right? All you know is that, you love that person and that is the freaking call you can't refuse or decline even if that person has no idea that the love you've pondered for so many years do exists; even if you've parted ways and decided to move on from the love you've shared yet it ignites the moment you see each other. it's complicated but that is how it is...

fooled and stoned

2008-11-25T22:18:00.000-08:00

Love fool - The Cardigans

kanta ng desperada sa lulukis o basta desparada!haha! but i love this song and i bet it was a sound track from Romeo and Juliet starring Leonardo di Caprio and Claire Danes. Side Comment? Hmmm... it is a paawa song! dang! I hate to admit it but I am having a hard time expressing myself in front of that person and that is because of that freakin' ego-trip he might have. SHOOT! Oh there! If that person happens to read this... IM DEAD!

Dear, I fear we're facing a problem you love me no longer,

I know and maybe there is nothing that I can do to make you do

Mama tells me I shouldn't bother that I ought to stick to another man

man that surely deserves me but I think you do!

So I cry, and I pray and I beg

Love me love me say that you love me

fool me fool me

go on and fool me

love me love me pretend that you love me

leave me leave me just say that you need me

So I cried, and I begged for you to

Love me love mesay that you love me leave me leave me just say that you need me

I can't care about anything but you

Lately I have desperately pondered,spent my nights awake and

I wonder what I could do have done in another way to make you stay

Reason will not lead to solution

I will end up lost in confusion

I don't care if you really care

as long as you don't go

So I cry, I pray and I beg

Love me love me say that you love me

fool me fool me go on and fool me

love me love me pretend that you love me

leave me leave me just say that you need me

So I cried, and I begged for you to

Love me love me say that you love me

leave me leave mej ust say that you need me

I can't care about anything but you

Love me love me say that you love me fool me fool me go on and fool me

Love me love meI know that you need me

I can't care about anything but you....

the dress fever...bow!

2008-11-25T21:26:00.000-08:00

sa may pantry po to ng office...haha!tarutch!

NANG AKO AY NAG-DRESS NUNG MINSAN!

GIRL NA GIRL, DI BA?

TARAY!

HAHA!

special message to razrs!

2008-11-16T08:49:00.000-08:00

my message to my beloved team mates who already became my family in the office...

Guys, you know how much I love you all... It's devastating since hindi na tayo magkakasama... pero magkikita pa rin naman tayo di ba? I am going to miss all of you since I've been with you guys for exactly or a total of nine months and no one can ever replace those winning and even sad moments we shared together... I am so thankful that I have you beside me thru good times and bad... I am going to miss the eat outs, the winning avail moments, the nakaw-picture moments inside the meeting rooms of teletech and within the pantry... The mischevious laugh of tinee, the miss universe smile of rhoda, the sweet-kilig chikas of donna, the humoruous dance of mami joy, the "hi my name is sara" of ney, the make-up sessions during the avail time and even mcdo moments inside the floor na patago pa sa mga erminguard, the so-bastos hirit of Kate, the too much bastos hirit of Kobe, the radio-dj voice of terz (with the Z), the cute skirts and smiles of wie, the arguments between the kikay and the goth of nikita and I, the froggy-michael jackson vids at pijongs of Angela, the soft voice of Gel,and the silence and biglang hirit of rizza, the yosi moments with geck and of course the imitator of Luis Manzano which is our T.L TAM...and many more...

ayan si boss tam! ang ginagaya ni Luis Manzano!hahaha!

yes it will be sad but God has better plans for us on why things happened... We may be parting ways since our team is already dissolved and it is an opportunity for all of us to grow... I'm going to miss all of you guys and of course all of us in the team are going to miss our boss, our mentor, our friend and our brother JONATHAN TAM... Tam, andito lang ang team bobo este team razr! Whatever your endeavors are mararating mo yun because you have been a great person and leader to us in which no one can ever replace you, dude... BALITAAN TAYO dude!!! huhu...

kaya yan!!! tama na... naiiyak na ko! *sigh!* team razr will be a legend, guys! hehehe! i love you, team razr! :) and again i am going to miss all of you...:( BOBO!hahahaha!

so-called love quote

2008-11-16T07:49:00.000-08:00

"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived."

- William Parrish (Anthony Hopkins)

Meet Joe Black

I am not pretty sure if William Parrish stated these lines to Joe Black. Apparently, I don't even know if I will believe on this one but what in the hell is love anyway? Why does it make the world go round as cliches had stated centuries ago?? Bluntly speaking, there are different things that people usually talk about or even guilty that they are crazy about some things that happens to be our necessity as humans. These are money, sex and love. The last one (which is LOVE) is the most talked about since we go ga-ga over it. Come on! Anyhow, it is already part of our lives and of course there are some levels and identifications of the said term. (UN)Fortunately, the romantic perspective of love does not apply to me or "wala pa kong natatagpuan..." yun lang yun! Or maybe I was just naive to check if there is really somebody around there to the point that I even try my best to get one person's attention wherein fact, this "another person" deserves my attention...gets? haha! I don't know I am becoming a cynic but I still have my hopes up... Who knows?

sweetest november...

2008-11-12T12:35:00.000-08:00

I'm single and you're welcome to change that!

ayan ang banat!

sige pila lang kayo, GORA AND CHANGE MY HALLOWEEN MONTH into a SWEET NOVEMBER... that is kung kaya niyo!hahaha!*landi!*

apparently not only November but forever...that is kung meron nun!??!

Topak mode lang kaya nagsulat bigla...hahaha!

Nah! there are times I think I might bring back the old flame to some of the you know who's and what the F I've been with and through. I missed having someone maybe because it was quite a long time since I last committed myself to a person. Now I am thinking twice, thrice and nth time before I can get myself in to a thing or two since I admit I am hell of a chicken out person when it comes to something way too serious. Apparently there are two contributing factors on why I can't have my-so-called-sweet-november:

external
internal

it is external in the sense that I have a lot of selections to choose. he he he he! Selections may not be connected to the men per se but there are a lot of circumstances wherein I myself just decided not to engaged a certain thing that I know I might regret in the end. In short, this external contributing factor is from the outside environment.

Sometimes I just can't help myself but be envy to those people who can face the reality that "hey I can take the risk of being with this person for the rest of my life...ya di ya and blah blah blah!. " Based from my studies (na imbento ko lang base sa observations ko), that person will end up being miserable because she/he overwhelmed towards her/ his emotion or happy because the love is being reciprocated. (or whatever!)

On the other hand, it is internal since I don't want to make the same mistakes all over again. I've been stupid a lot of times and as one of my memoirs and quotes to my bffs, "Sana may mahanap naman akong tamang katangahan sa buhay ko. Peste! At kailan manyayari yun?" Hmmmm... I myself cannot answer that since incidents are very unpredictable. I'm still gullible and sensitive. That is a sad fact but good thing I'm resilient. Thank God I still know how to make a fine line between like and love (kahit papaano!). Guys, come on! I am taking my time- too much time that I think that kind of time and moment is not here but it will be in God's sign. So don't you even dare say that I need a man just to take control of my whereabouts. Hello! I have my own mind and will to do things I want to and to make rational decisions in life that I know I will benefit from it. Now, that is what I am talking about. ha ha!

Maybe it is just a spare of the moment or just a glimpse of loneliness that I am missing having special someone but I don't think I am ready due to some occurrences that I need to focus first. Come on, Clarence! You are one of a heck of a running contradiction. Anyhow, I just need a sleep and I am good to go when I wake up like nothing is happening. Ignorance is bliss if you hate what is happening around you or if it happen that almost all of the people you are with do suck! *sigh!*

In God's time talaga.tsk! And I bet that man will be lucky since as my bestfriend Tentay had quoted, "My happiness is an empire of which you could have been a king, where your smile has imposed its kingdom." --In which I might apply that thing next. haha! and hopefully? Hmmmm... I am going to be his queen. ha ha! *sweet!*

advance merry christmas! and abangan ang susunod na mga kabanata!LOL

x factor

2008-11-12T05:19:00.000-08:00

I know that it’s absurd and insane to sound as if
my whole life revolved around being somebody’s ex-
girlfriend. But I can’t help it…that title packs a
pretty strong impact. I am now an official member
of the “loved-and-lost” club though years has passed yet I’m still a current member of the said club. Anyone like me does not want that title but we just have to face the fact that the person we love the most does not anymore want to be part of our lives. To put it bluntly, that person either wants us to be out of their lives or things will never work out as it is that it simply has to END.

I am an ex.

I once loved someone who loved me back. But he
didn’t want to stay… So I got to let go of the love that we once shared. I cried a lot. I spent countless nights questioning myself on what
went wrong, breaking down discreetly so people especially my parents wouldn’t suspect that something was
amiss. I also splurged the night drinking all night long so as for me to forget that kind of misery I was going thru. However, I always woke up having a hang-over and then I am back to reality until I realize it becomes a cycle. It becomes a routine wherein my body longs and seeks for alcohol just to escape and ignore that hurtful reality. I’d reminisce about our happy times and winning moments, then suddenly break down when I’d finally sink in to the fact that he was no longer mine.

I analyzed every single detail of our breakup. I
wrote long messages to my closest friends on line. It was a never-ending talk about my situation. I spent my nights in
tearful telephone conversations and my days in
daydreams where we’d end up in each other’s
arms again. Sometimes he was still my angel, still
my knight in shining armor who I’d do anything for
just to have back. There are times I think of him as
the devil incarnate who broke my heart and brought darkest days and coldest nights in my life which in return, he badly deserves to have his soul burn in hell.

I tried to show the world that I was OK. That I was
over him. That it was fine just being friends. I didn’t
go around with a big “X” on my forehead, nor did I
go around with puffy eyes and a tissue box. I tried
to live my life as I knew it before I met him. People
thought that I was doing great. They heard me
laugh and they saw me smile; I seemed happy,
they said; and I told myself that I was. But in the
solace of my room, where I tried to organize my
thoughts and sort out my feelings, I had to admit
to myself that I wasn’t truly happy. Because I was
still yearning for someone, and my heart still
ached for something that could not be.

Surprisingly, things went better on the latter part. I’ve
changed. Somewhere along the way, I realized
that he wasn’t the only one out there for me. I also
realized that there were valid, powerful reasons

why we split up or we should have our separate lives. And if not for him I will not also be here; stronger and wiser.He’s changed as well — when I look at him,sometimes I still see the boy I fell in love with. Sometimes I think that he’s the same person…he still has the same goofy smile and mischievous
charm that I fell for, and I like to believe that the
rest of him is unchanged as well. But then I take a
closer look and I realize that he HAS changed…
that I don’t know him anymore, not really… not
enough to love and care for him as I once did.

I am an ex.

I’ve loved and lost. I’ve cried tears for the things
that were and that could have been. I’ve wrestled
with intense feelings of love and hate, of jealousy,
of frustration. I’ve simultaneously taken down and
brought up my pride. I’ve tried to rebuild my world
without the person whom it used to revolve around.
I’ve tried to save myself from the depths of
depression and self-pity, and when I couldn’t do
that, I turned to God for help. I don’t know exactly
what I gained, or how much I lost. Maybe someday
it will be all clear to me…and someday I’ll find all the answers to my questions in God’s time… Right now I am glad that I am coming up with the answers why such things happened.;)

past and present factor!

2008-11-04T21:21:00.000-08:00

1) Single, Taken, Naked, or Flirt?

~ SINGLE and flirt.LOL!hahahah!

2) Are you happy with that?

~ hahaha! i think so!LOL!

3) Would you still kiss your ex?

~ Why not??!LOL!hahahaha!in his dreams na lang!hahaha!

4) Have you ever had your heart
broken?

~ how BRUTAL and BITTER you want it to be?hahaha!

5) Do you believe that there are
certain circumstances where cheating
is ok?

~ the end does not justify the means though I also believe in karma.LOL!

6) Have you ever talked about
marriage?

~ nah!!!

7) Do you want children?

~ of course.

8) How Many?

~2 or 3?

9) If someone liked you right now,
would you want him/her to tell you?

~ why not??it is not a big deal after all.hehe

10) Do you want someone you can't
have?

~ i think so.hahahah!

11) Have you ever been in love?

~ what??? oo naman.

12) Do you believe in celebrating
anniversaries?

~ hahahaha!i think not anymore!

14) Is it a good day?

~ not really but im gonna make sure to make a way that it will be a good one.

15) What would you say about your most recent ex?

-My dearest "latest" ex, I am unable to hear to you and if you can hear me please never dare to call back at 0915******* or you may dial 1800ASAKAPA for more details. I am disconnecting this call now and thank you for calling ME.LOL!hahahahhahaha!=)

16) Does your ex still have feelings
for you?

~ Do I give a damn?hahahaha!

17) Do you believe in long distance
relationships?

~ hahahahaha!not anymore!

18) Do you believe in love at first
sight?

~ tsk!that is crazy.haha!

to my ever gullible friend named SUMMER!

2008-11-04T06:36:00.000-08:00

kailan ka ba madadala??kailan at kailan!!!???

juiciest...

2008-10-29T23:43:00.000-07:00

yeah right! It is hard to add such comments but hey its one of my songs. Juiciest by Alicia Keys. This song is for all of my girls out there. (dami nun ah!LOL)…

“baby, i don’t care if you don’t want me no more…”

in short?

You are not the only guy in this world and I wouldn’t even summon myself wasting my time and energy thinking (of you) while you don’t even bother to care. I still know how to save myself from distress without having a prince to save me(especially you!). duhh??LOL!

it is really hard to be lovefooled or lovestoned especially when you were a bit overwhelmed regarding your feelings. Insane things happen. But once you’re awake from having a nightmare then who knows good things will happen, right?haha! And someday you will just laugh about the crazy things you did for the sake of that person. Its funny but we usually end up asking ourselves, “Kingina! Nagawa ko yun??!Shiiittt!”

Juiciest is like the song Irreplaceable by Beyonce though on the other hand, I love Juiciest because I am;shiiiittt kapal! hahaha!nahh just playing around..Please click on the hyperlink if you want to listen to it.

“I used to miss you now I am glad that you’re gone.”

–And i really do. hehe!:)

makes sense :)

JUICIEST

Uhhh, Yeah

uh you know
you may think you got in the raps locks and keys
and that without you im’a be lost
but i got something else for you

[Verse 1]
baby i use to sit home waiting for your call (yea)
i use to have your picture hangin on my wall (yea)
use to think you were right, but you was wrong (yea)
i use to miss you now im glad that your gone

[Hook]
Baby i dont care if you dont wanna call me no more (yea)
baby i dont care if you dont wanna call me no more (juiciest baby)

[Chorus]
cause im the juciest baby girl around
and i got nine hundred ninty-nine men knocking down down my door
cause im the juiciest baby girl around (baby girl baby girl)
and i dont care if you dont call no more (no i sure dont)

[Verse 2]
we use to light a fire on a rainy night
i used to like it when you come and hold me tight
i used to believe we would never part (no)
but now ive had a change of heart

[Hook]
Baby i dont care if you dont wanna call me no more (i dont care)
baby i dont care if you dont wanna call me no more (yea)

[Chorus]
cause im the juciest baby girl around (yea, baby girl baby girl)
and i got nine hundred ninty-nine men knocking down down my door
(cause they’ve gotta have sweet now)
cause im the juiciest baby girl around (baby)
and i dont care if you dont call no more
(and i dont care if you dont call me no mo) [Repeat twice]

baby i dont care if you dont wanna call me no more
baby i dont care if you dont wanna call me no more

I, not the ONLY perv!

2008-10-29T14:30:00.000-07:00

for more reference please check out Joey's blog

I happened to discover this amusing stuff from Joey. If you want you can feel free to navigate her blog and even leave a comment. We are a hypocrite if we don't admit that all of us have at least a bit "perv" thing in our minds. Why do we fantasize a certain person if we knew to ourselves that person is worth--ahaha ya know (to our fantasies)??LOL! Come on admit it! Majority of us are perverts though on the other hand, it has levels and it has abnormalities as well. Most of the time being a pervert is a necessity since it is a part of human behavior (life instincts). In short we're talking about LIBIDO ( latin word for "I desire") as quoted by Freud. LOL! It is contradicting for me to publish such an article that I got from Joey since I believe I am celibate NOW though I badly confessed that I am guilty of some of the items written here below. ha ha ha ha! basahin niyo nga lang!LOL;p

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We’re all perverts to a degree. It’s just a matter of how much. Or how much we are willing to admit. Or what we consider perversion. Again, kinkiness is in the eye of the beholder. As far as perversion is concerned, I take the fifth.

The Top Ten Signs That You’re A Pervert

1. Marcus - When saying goodbye, you say things like, “See Yours!”, “Vagi-now!”, “Babay-again!” and “Titi You Later!”
2. Michael Agustin - Back in high school, I was taking a bath when my dad knocked on the door and said, “Anak, kakain na tayo! Mamaya mo na ulit laruin yan.” Takes 1 to know 1. My dad is a pervert too.
3. SPY Shadow - Sila yung balik ng balik sa entrance ng building para makapkapan ulit ni Manong guard. At galit pa kung walang malisya ang kapkap nila.
4. Bongoloid - You’re a pervert if all the pages of your girly magazines are sticking to each other.
5. Jose de vengenge - For girl perverts. Pag nakitulog sa inyo ang hot sexy crush mo, you make him wear your 13-yr-old brother’s butas-butas na shorts para maliit na sa kanya, at may makikita ka pa.
6. Jessie - I find it sexy when I see two dogs sniffing butts.
7. Enigmatic - I’m a straight guy, but when I’m at the beach, I admire men’s buff bodies. I can’t explain it, but I’m also drawn to men’s nipples.
8. Ateh ko - Whenever I see my crush at work, we hug each other. I love it especially wen he hugs me so tight and my breasts are pressed against his sexy chest. Nakakailang, pero I like it.
9. No name - Our admin secretary, around 38 years old, sometimes wears high-heeled shoes that has a reflective metal plate in the toe area. I call it her “pasilip” shoes.
10. Triggerhappy - You’re a pervert kung after sex, ihi na nga lang ang pahinga, sisilipan mo pa.
11. Lebroni - When you talk like Chico and think like Delamar.
12. Mr. Perk - If your favorite part of a haircut is the rinsing because someone’s touching your hair and it gives you a different sensation.
13. RC N CESS - This topic is very tempting. I’m in a bus going to Cavite. And just about now, girls in PE uniforms just boarded.
14. Bottom Dweller - Jon, a friend of mine, has a decade’s worth of Avon underwear brochures.
15. Maximo - Pag lagi kang pumupunta sa funeral parlor para tingnan yung mga ine-embalsamong mga hubo’t hubad na bangkay.
16. Tim - I have fantasies of our female boss sexually harassing me. She’s fun, hot and my age. So if she’s listening right now, “Ma’am, pramis…hindi ako papalag.”
17. Espeks - Kung kembot pa lang ng balakang ng girl, eh umiilaw na ang bombilya mo.
18. Yalem - My brother is certified pervert. Whenever I open my personal pc, he puts wallpaper of nude girls. Sa history naman ng websites, lahat porn sites and when I use the keyboard, its always sticky.
19. Boobsie 36″ - I’m a female with a size D cup bra. I really couldn’t believe I could suck my own nipples.
20. Jose de vengenge - If you know all the top porn sites like youporn, xtube, xlive & iyotube.
21. Mr. Hard-Rock Abs - My perversion is to look at guys’ armpits wherever, whenever.
22. Espeks - I have a friend who rides the FX and uses his elbow as his main weapon to feel the hot girl beside her.
23. Muldr’s Luvr - I think I’m a perv because I always fantasize about doing “it” w/ my young, tall, fresh and good-looking subordinate who has flawless skin and smells good even when he’s sweating. Oops, too much info…sorry.
24. KiD BuKid - Perverts’ rooms smell like Clorox!
Jose de vengenge - Guys please don’t judge me for admitting this ah. I get excited when I read/hear rape stories in the news especially if they’re detailed.
25. SUPAH GODDESS - Whenever I see the armpits of John Lloyd Cruz, Jake Cuenca and Richard Gutierrez, oh goodness, I start to have erotic images of them.
26. McMaki - If you try to stand close to people so you can sniff how they smell.
27. Dox - I can’t eat a banana or sausage without choking at some point.
28. Purplerose - You’re a pervert when you stay underwater in a pool for hours even if you can’t swim just to look at the “different” view from below the water.
29. Cheyenne - Sila yung mga tuwang-tuwa kapag may baha kasi inaabangan nila yung mga estudyante na naglililis ng kanilang uniform para hindi ito mabasa!
30. Marcus - Sarili mong asawa china-chansingan mo in public.
31. Your Highness - One sure sign that you’re a pervert is pag laging malagkit ang pusod mo!
32. Glioblastoma - When you always have thoughts of having sex inside a balikbayan box.
33. Black Coffee - I’m a pervert because whenever I spot a hot sexy girl, sumisikip ang pantalon ko.
34. No name - You are a pervert if you have a copy of one of the following not-so-wholesome animated movies: “Snow White Does the Seven Dwarves”, “Beauty Digs the Beast”, and the all-time favorite, “The Loin King”.
35. M.E. - My husbnd saves a lot of those porn videos in his phone. I get angry when his phone memory is low because of this. But when he’s asleep, I secretly take a peek at the videos.
36. KiD BuKid - If you always fake having sore eyes, so you’ll get away with getting immediate “medication” from the lactating young Moms!
37. Diemyrus - If you’re happy when you’re packed like sardines in the MRT.
38. No name - Kapag binobosohan mo ang sarili mo.
39. ACER - Back in college, we deliberately wear basketball shorts when in a jeepney, and sit a certain way so that when girls in short shorts get on, our knees rub their legs.
40. Jose de vengenge - When on a date, ang paalam mo pag iihi ka: “Excuse me, I have to shake hands with a friend of mine who hopes to meet you after dinner..”

miggy and miguel

2008-10-23T07:36:00.000-07:00

Let me introduce you to Miguel. My lover and boyfriend of all time... As you can see Ann Curtis is holding him dearly pero pilit!LOL! --Naku ako na lang sana humahawak niyan sealed with a kiss pa!hahahah! Anyhow, here I am again back in drinking though I don't drink that much compared before wherein, I can stand up drinking the whole night-midnight until the sun shines itself up! hahaha! It is not that I am bragging about it. It is simply the truth. That was me-an alcoholic b*tch. Now? I just simply love alcohol with my friends but I do know the word LIMITATION. hahaha! But still? I am always SOBER!

Alis ka dyan, Ann! Miguel is mine! Duhhhh?? hahahaha! Sa mga uhaw na ngala-ngala. Sa mga hayok sa kanya. Pumila lang at lumagok kasama ng bespren ninyong chaser (though others don't use chasers!) LOL!
*******

Now after I drink and sip the hell out of the soul of Miguel. I'll be needing Miggy to compensate my satisfaction just for the sake I felt that I am drinking something. haha!

Admittedly, I don't really understand why some people like me are so guilty of this habit--drinking! Of course there are reasons but there are some things that are left unfathomable. For some, it is not the alcohol itself that lights up the mood but also the people you are with...BAWAL EMO pag lasing! I myself badly confessed that I was always sober but now, I know the word CONTROL!hahaha! at eto pa para:

Sa mga sawi sa pag-ibig

Sa mga problemado sa buhay

Sa mga walang magawa sa buhay

Sa mga may tinatakasan

Sa mga gumraduate sa lahat

Sa mga birthday celebration

Sa mga sinagot ng jowa

Sa mga winning moments ng mag-jowa

Sa mga whatever moments

Sa mga araw-araw na okasyon (kahit wala!)

Sa mga hindi mailantad-lantad na nararamdaman

Sa mga pagod sa trabaho

Sa mga gustong uminom lang

Sa mga gustong mag-enjoy

Sa mga gustong wala-lang-gusto-ko-lang-uminom-at-bakit??

Sa halos lahat ng walang kwentang rason

ALAK ang panandaliang solusyon... take note: PANANDALIAN HA??

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Sorry wala akong magawa--strike of boredom lang to!*sigh!*

the blind item

2008-10-21T21:09:00.000-07:00

I don't know what else do I have to scatter about this person who is in a way too serious about his life. Here I am again acting like a freakin' teenager (though HELLO CLARENCE, YOU ARE 22 YRS. OLD ALREADY!!!). Oh snap! haha! I am not a big fan of Piolo Pascual and Tirso Cruz at all... Excuse me-- di pa naman ako kasing- tanda ni Nora Aunor. Sh*t! Oopps... first clue na yun! LOL!

Gays and girls, enlarge at your own pleasure!

Anyhow, my eyes are in a heck of cloud nine whenever he passed around the pantry or around the office. Maybe that reason why my eyes are feeling this way is because he is good looking...MAYBE LANG! Tama ba naman gawin kong diary tong blog na to?!! *Sigh!*

I badly confessed that my workplace is very suitable for gays and gay-girls like me simply because there are a lot of good looking guys. Unfortunately, majority of them are taken either by a girl or a gay or a widowed b*tch. ha ha ha ha!

One hell of a confession of a single ladies like me is daan daanan na lang sa pambabalahura, pamimikon, papampam, minsan nachochope pa at pablog blog lang...

The heck! I am not in lababo, excuse me?!!

Curiosity kills the cats. Apparently, that is one of the painful truth. I am a hypocrite if I say that one meeting is already enough for me to stop to dig-in about his personality and everything under the sun and the moon as well. But then just to give you a heads up I got disappointed because I found out something. Whatever are his reasons...bahala na...

And so I guess that will end there. END-though I'll never know since circumstances are very unpredictable.

updates

2008-09-30T21:38:00.000-07:00

so far there are no updates in life except for two things:

me together with my teammates are going to be on the morning shift this coming October 7,2008.hehe

i will use my first leave on October 10!yey!hehehe! Pahinga muna di ba?haha!

Anyhow, I'm deciding if I should use that day going to manila to see my friends...wooow! dami nila haha! inuman galore ito and i admit I do miss alcohol since I rarely drink since 2008 came. I just happened to realize that I should stop being an alcoholic b*tch!haha! Oh yeah right, if some of you are asking if I do have plans to stop smoking, I only have one answer to that one; it is either SOONER or LATER but not NOW!hahaha!;p

Admittedly, there are a lot of times that I get complacent with the things I do (specifically with work) but then looking at the people around me who never gave up to strive for the team, I don't think I have the reason to give up to the things I want to do in my life while I am here...working... As kuya edwin (one of my mentors aside from Tam-my T.L) have said "you should have a goal here so that it wont stop you from striving and driving for what you want. just keep it simple.Know what you want." Makes sense.

LOVELIFE??--uso pa ba yun??leche!

hmmmm... I need to take a rest from someone who does not even bother to care. So far, I don't need those damn excuses for that person not to communicate. Yeah right, somehow I do give reconsiderations to those excuse and I just want to know what in the hell happened to him- I'm worried. I'm hurt in a way though I am not showing it. Honestly, silence breaks my heart and I am still hoping that something good is going to happen though on the other hand, I should listen to the people not to mind that person anymore because its hopeless or he's also fucked up. I'm tired and I don't anymore believe in love for some unfortunate reasons- it simply does not apply to me--at all! haha! *tragic!*

Divertional theraphy??

I don't need another person (a man) to replace one. As I have said I am tired. Hmmmmm...So far, I'm focused in my family, work, making money (LOL) and friends. T.I.M.E is all I need and sometimes a little bit of laughter and an alcohol will do. LOL!!!

More blogs to come,...na walang kwenta!haha!

moral lesson ala sun visor sh*t!

2008-08-31T20:31:00.000-07:00

last year 2007:

I had the best and worst things in life but more on worst but its a good thing I learned from it. Here are some of the things I recall na parang premonition ata ito....

At Greenbelt 3 during gimik or not exactly gimik but coffee time with some of the extreme amigas then we saw group of guys na parang pupunta ata sa basketball game---kalagitnaan ng gabi!

I am a self-confessed discreet laitera around. hehe! Apparently, those guys caught my attention. they really caught my attention while I was sipping my coffee around eh nabulunan lang naman ako. haha!

To be honest, I don't mean to offend some people who were in an extreme hip-hop outfit but I hate it. It irritates me but at the same time they do laugh my ass off coz they really look funny to me.haha! I don't get the logic na magsusuot sila ng ganon sa kalagitnaan ng gabi and yung isa may SUN VISOR pa! take note SUN VISOR sa gabi! hanep di ba?

Right now, I would like to extend my sincerest apologies to those guys I laugh at during that time (hey I'm serious!). Sorry natawa at natuwa lang ako sa inyo but I admit it was out of respect that is why I'm sorry.

Anong magagawa ko kung yun yung trip at style nila? This is a democratic country, if they want to run naked on the streets basta hindi makakagambala o makakayanig sa mundo ng publiko, ok lang yan GO! Anyhow, minsan natatawa pa rin ako but this time with pure tuwa na lang and basta...hahaha! pero about the guy who wore a sun visor? hmmmm... Amigo, walang silbi ang sun visor sa ulo mo sa gabi dahil walang araw!hehehe! Mag cap ka na lang. haha!;p

Getting back, here is the famous script (not exactly verbatim nung time na yun since its so tagal na kaya! yak arte!):

Cla: (while having an intent look to those guys na she really admits na they are gwapo...its just that she hates jerseys!)
"Wow!hahahahah!hanep! may basketball game ba sa gitna ng greenbelt, bakla?hahahaha!

Amiga 1: (sabay tingin)
"hahahaha! nagsimula ka na naman! oo nga noh!" (sabay tahimik)

Cla: (nang may makita na lulu na naka SUN visor)
"P$%$^%^%^#$! hahahahaha! SUN VISOR sa gabi??? hanep!hahahahahhahaha!
(hanggang halos mautot sa katatawa!)

Amiga 2: Gagu! Sama mo talaga mang-okray... pano pag ganyan nagustuhan mo??

Cla: Kingina! Magbibigti na lang ako! chet!hahahahha! seryoso!

Amiga 1: hay nako nagsalita ka na naman tapos...sa bagay you tend to do that but then you tend to swallow what you say...hahaha!

Cla: hindi kaya! tingnan natin!hahah!

after a year---2008:

kinain ko sinabi ko.... see!

I can't think of a way or a reason for me to commit a suicide NOW, right? It's because "perhaps" there is no reason... at all!

ha ha ha ha!

moral lesson:

huwag basta basta magsalita ng tapos.

p.s: don't wear sun visors during the night time...please!

ok lang pala magsuot ng mga chorvang jerseys na yan basta hindi ka panget at carry lang.=)

FIN!

separation anxiety...sigh!

2008-08-29T00:38:00.000-07:00

Due to change of scheds may kailangang semi-magpaalam sa team tam na medyo sad but its understandable naman due to health reasons... pero yung isa umalis na talaga and di man lang ako nakapagpaalam ng maayos...*SIGH!*

drama emo mode naman ang lola churvaness...somehow nakikita ko pa naman karamihan dito..hehe! may umalis at may darating din parang bagyo lang!hehe!pero minsan iba pa rin or siguro nakakapanibago lang but what can I do its part of life...its the call center life ika nga di ba?

hayyy ayun may aalis na naman sa team namin..kalungkot pero ok lang i know na may nag-aantay na better opportunities for them syempre sa teletech din!hehe..pero nakakamiss talaga...:(

Gel (Eckow), Mami Jen and Dino (Miguelito Jose)

GEL (ECKOW)---Naku super mamimiss kita... wala na kong kasamang sumasight ng mga lulukis sa bagong wave o batch then bibinyagan natin ng super bantot na espanyol na name... La na ko kasama na mag-play the codes for the lulus out there... Mababawasan na naman yung taong pagchichikahan ko ng mga eclavu ko sa life! hay talaga! Sana sinabihan mo man lang akez..huhuhu... I'm really gonna miss you Gel... Mababawasan na naman ng mga magagandang dilag sa team razr ni boss tam... La na rin akong kasama sa payabangan echos ni Madam Eckow at Senyorita Segunda kasama sina Carlotta, Ursula at Salome... Hay talaga I'm really gonna miss you to the highest level! SUPER! with matching flying capa! Basta Gel, andito lang kapwa mo gel din! I'm happy for you super kasi you super deserve in your work and I know na you will succeed on it! Huwag mo ko kakalimutan, MAdam at ikaw ang aking fabulosang organizer ko sa aking KASAL!!!--na tatalbog sa kasal ni Princess Diana! labshu!

MAMI JEN- the most bentang laugh ever aside sa ken... mamimiss ko kayong dalawa..wala ng magdadala ng yummy ulam for the team especially pag lunch..hehehe!the ever hot mama na kamukha ni angelica panganiban.,hehehe!la na counterpart ni dara sa katarayan churvaness ever!hahaha!i'm going to miss you...

my ever loving mami rhonz... aka dara! i'll miss you..:( magaabot pa naman tayo ng shift di ba?hehe!

MAMI RHONZ AKA DARA!!!mamimiss kita la na magbebenta sa ken ng tocino't liempo na only in teletech na compulsory buying talaga..hehehe!I'm gonna miss the line--"nak, ang poise! ipantay ang katawan dali!hehehe!" la na ko kaagaw for picture taking sa cam ni donna't tinee!hehehe! Congrats! Magiging GRE Coach ka na! yihee!!!:)

dino aka miguelito jose! pilit ngumite pero masaya yan sa lablyf niya!hahaha! salamat sa meaningful joke about bagoong and kare kare with matching MANI!hahaha!

DINO AKA MIGUELITO JOSE ONG PIN- HAHA! My ever first/pioneer crush sa teletech! "DI NIYA ALAM NAGING KAMI THEN NAG-BREAK KAMI, HINDI NIYA RIN ALAM! KAILAN LANG NIYA NALAMAN!BWAHAHAHAHAHA!Ayun...wala na kong maasar at binubully while taking calls...la na yung isa sa mga pinakawafu sa team!hehehe! i'm going to miss you and thanks for helping me switch my mood during the time i was in a topak mode and thanks for that MEANINGFUL bagoong and kare kare joke with MATCHING CRISPY MANI AND unwashed BAGOONG!hahaha! you really made me laugh that hard! benta tsong!wala na rin mang-aasar sa ken at mambabara ng pasimple!hahaha! you deserve sa position mo ngayon coz i know you worked hard for it! enjoy life!labs ka ni amigang teta!yihee!hehehe! So sorry girls, he is taken but NOT BY ME!!!hahahahah!

Mami Jolllia and Dara (Mami Rhonz)... Hindi sila handa sa picture!hehehe!;p

MAMI LAI AKA JOLLLIIIAAA!- mami julia am gonna miss you din just like the rest..hehehe! basta you all of you must always take care of your health owkie?? wala na kong maririnig na nanggagaya kay anabelle rama at dun sa jading na bisayang agent saying "ganyan ba tono ng nagtatanooonnnggg??" hehehe...:) sorry kung di na ko masyadong nagkukwento about sa lovelife..hehe!grabe its super queuing sa gabi..i hope magkakasama pa rin tayo one time!!!

The whole Team Razr with the King...Boss Tam!;p

love you all and im going to miss all of the people who already went out of the team...
Team Razr Forever! yeah!!!hehehe!;p

teka magkikita pa rin tayo sa office di ba?hehehe!

when beauty hits the creature (beast)

2008-08-25T04:23:00.001-07:00

here I am feeling chicken little! dancing dancing kuno! i am here...AGAIN and just having my flying kiss to my Kangaroo Prince...wahahaha!MWAH!

duh?? who says I'm gone na here in the blog eh I posted something palang one day ago noh??!hahaha! Anyhow, month of August was indeed a windang month for me. Bagsak reliability ko sa work due to absenses. Duh??? I got sick kaya. And I thought I was gonna die na talaga to the highest level. hahahaha! But sorry to all those bitches who wish me dead. Hinding-hindi ako mamatay na ganun lang noh! Besides, I'm not a masamang damo... I am a naughty grass BABEE!!!wahahahah! SAme shit lang!haha! Anyhow, may kilig moments din ako akala niyo ba?haha! hmmm... syempre ang rason dun eh ang walang kamatayan na Mr. K.M ng buhay ko... duhhhh??? He's always included in my blog noh?? Hay nako STOP ME...KINIKILIG NA NAMAN AKO- sa aking kangaroo prince!And I know I'm so arte. haha! Good news?? Hmmmm...eto regular na kami ni Kate and iba kong teammates but THERE ARE SOME CHANGES!!!

YES IT'S CHANGES! Changes sa schedules and sa teammates. Hay that is so kawindang sa month of August. Anyway, next time ko na lang ibablog yung about sa changes na yun. hehehe... there is something I want to share that is playing on my mind...

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I call it when Beauty hits the Creature (oh Should I say the beast??)

The BEAUTY

HITS

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OH WAIT!

Who is Creature??

Enlarge at your own risk!

Hmmmmmm... SAbihin na natin na HE ALSO CAME FROM THE PLANETANG YEKOK and HE IS A RELATIVE OF KOKEY!!!IF YOU WANT WE CAN NAME HIM "KOROKOY"!hahahaha! Sorry matagal na tong churva na to pero ngayon ko lang ilalabas! Hay nako HE IS SO LUCKY KAYA THAT I MAKE PATOL PA OF HIM BEFORE...DUHHH??? HE SHOULD BE THANKFUL, RIGHT AND NOT MAKE NASTY SIRA BEHIND MY BACK! SO IF EVER I SAW HIM...NAKO I MIGHT GIVE HIM THE BEST AND THE CRISPY TADJAK AND SUNTOK HE EVER DESERVE! HAAAYYY..DAHIL I DID NOT DO ANYTHING WRONG KAYA... INSECURE KASI!LOL!;p good thing Beauty was already awoke na from her nightmare..yeah I was lovefooled!

thank God hindi pa kita pinamukha dito...pero...kasi???? hmmmmm... NAKO STOP ME!!!!!!!
Nako mga Amigo Amiga, If YOU ONLY WANT, YOU MAY ENLARGE IT AT YOUR VERY OWN RISK AND KIDS PLEASE DON'T TRY THIS AT HOME!

DUHHH??? WHY ARE YOU MAKING NASTY SIRA BEHIND MY BACK??YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME AND GOD KNOWS HOW??ULUL!HAHAHA!DUH??GO BACK TO PLANETANG YEKOK KAYA. THE PLANET EARTH DOES NOT NEED YOU HERE. MARRY KAKAI OR GORGONIA MAGALPOK-YOU MULTIPLY YOUR LAHI KAYA THERE ON THE PLANETANG YEKOK?!LOL!!!!AYAN GOD IS GOOD BUTI GANITO NANYARI. HEHEHE! DUHH??? GUYS! IT'S NOT ANYMORE MY FAULT IF THE GOSPEL TRUTH SAYS THAT HE IS HORRIBLE INSIDE AND OUT MORE THAN I DO. EVEN GAYS DON'T DO MAKE A SIRA TO A PERSON NOH?? O BAKA NAMAN GANITO...

It's seems like you're converted sweetheart! (duhhh did I just call you on that name?eew!) oops when?hehe!

it's like a shrimp, just remove the head! wag ka mangarap!lol!geeezzz I'm so mean!

WE ARE THE PERFECT MATCH???HMMMMM... OH?! ONLY IN A BEAUTY AND THE BEAST MATTER OF PERSPECTIVE!LOL! SORRY I DESERVE A PRINCE OR A KING AND NOT A MONSTER.LOL!ahhhhyyyyy YOU DESERVE TO BE IN PLANETANG YEKOK TALAGA!hahahaha! GO BACK NA TO YOUR SPACESHIP DAHIL GAWA NA SIYA!

***hayy...ang bad ko!!! minsan lang to!hahaha! at least nilabas ko na... this was like a "sweet message" was made like around 4 or 5 months ago...:)

P.S: Rumors about me nowadays are true. I got a kangaroo Prince!hehe!LOL!;p

The New Shift

2008-08-22T06:08:00.000-07:00

I don't know what happened to Spongebob why he smoked weed so bother not to ask!haha!I almost look like spongebob who happens to be stoned in MJ pag puyat! Imagine, I look like a stoned person when I got no sleep!hahaha!

Yes you heard it right guys. I am in the night shift now. So what's new to all of the people who has the same work as I am? Hay nakakapanibago lang siguro kasi its been how many months like around 4 months na morning shift ako. At first, ayoko dahil I'm so super sanay sa puyat but now? Hell!It is really pain in the ass! I had few adjustments within the past couple of days and ngayon? I'm just sharing na it is so nakakapanibago! haha! arte! Anyhow, I know God has a reason why all of us in the team had to be on that said shift 12 am to 9 am and madalas? may over time! yeah boy gimme some money here!hahahaha!;p Ok naman eh masakit lang talaga sa katawan and admittedly, I freakinn need a lot of stress tabs, vitamin c, vitamin d and e as well. OO na! lahat na ng bitamina! shet!hahaha! anyhow pros and cons ng night shift:

CONS
-Let's take a bath guys....SA CALLS! hahaha!
-puyat
-prone sa sakit
-spooky stuff happens during the night shift!
-no huddle...at all!
-no petiks mode!
-no chika mode na...at all!
-delikado sa gabi...madaming masamang elemento
-EWAN! MAGBIGAY PA KAYO NG CONS!
-mainitin ang ulo pagdating ng araw...puyat kasi..irate!haha!
-baliktad ang tulog! ang eyebags!!!oh my God! spongebob+ dracula= not-so-good equation!hahaha!

PROS
-night differential pay!yey! -mabilis ang oras! -for me?hmmmm...malabong malate dahil delikado ang panahon so I need to be early.haha! -most of the time? may over time!haha! -makakapagprepare ka ng maayos kasi nga you have all the time sa gabi! -WALA NA AKO MAISIP...BANGAG NA AKO...SA PUYAT!HAHA!

*basta yun lang muna so far!hahahaha!

MASAMANG tanders at lightning

2008-08-13T00:23:00.000-07:00

Hindi lahat ng tandercats nakakatuwa, may iba buisit! PERO ito!HANEP! kakaibang buisit!

SHIT! yun ang una kong reaction nang magtext sa akin si mudrakers about sa taong pinaka-AYAW kong tao talaga!---TO THE HIGHEST LEVEL!!!

masinsinang text ni mudra at ni junakis:

mudra: nak, may balita ako.

junakis: ano yun?

mudra: mag-aapply si TANSO sa opisina mo.

junakis: (di na nakapagreply dahil sa windang!)

REACTIONS??

BIGLANG NATIGIL ANG FABULOSANG MUNDO NI BACLA and sobrang plenty ang kaniyang reactions. Puro shit na lang. Wala na bang iba??

"Putangina! Ano to?? Bangungot?? Shit! Wake me up! Wake me up!
Oh God! He should go back to the outside world na. We don't need him here. Oh shit!"

SCENARIO SA T.A (H.R) OFFICE:

cla: (praningzer z mode)
papa jeff, paki tingin nga ng pangalan na to (sabay sabi ng complete name ni tansong tanders)

jeff (papa piolo look-a-like): teka tignan ko...(with matching todo type itong si papa p. sa kanyang pc)

cla: ui papa??(with matching pacute and winky wink eyes and todo poise) ano meron nga bang nag-apply ng ganung name??

jeff: OO!

cla: di nga??

jeff: oo nga meron eto tingnan mo!

cla: (sabay tingin sa monitor...at...WINDANG!)

cla: (shocked biglang napasabi---PUTANGINA!)

at ayun nawala bigla pagkahumaling ni bakla sa replica ni piolo sa teletech!

COMMENTS??

OO! Masama na ang ugali ko pero anong magagawa ko eh ayaw ko talaga sa kanya!Mabablame niyo ba ako if sabihin ko sa inyo na he is one of the people who always messes up with our ass (my family's ass). Tapos lagi ko pang nakikita sa bahay. Pakshet talaga! ANG HIRAP NUN. KUNG MATANGGAP SIYA SA WORKING PLACE KO, MANGANGASIM NA NAMAN PAGMUMUKHA KO. POTA KUNG BUNTIS LANG AKO BAKA MAGING CHAKA ANAK KO DAHIL SA IMBYERNA!!!grrrrrrr!!!!

ANG SCENARIO SA PANTRY:

nikki: ano ok ka na?

cla: CRANKY MODE! inis ako! naiinis ako! (discreetly nag-aamok sa pantry)

kate: sino??

cla: eh di sino pa??Si TANDERCATS!

nikki: (masamang balak mode)
bakla,windangin natin buhay niya. Ilagay natin siya kay F.

cla: (windang mode)
shit!goodluck! Gusto kong mag-yosi!

After nun, nagyosi si bakla at sabay hirit ni nikki na, "kung gusto mo billiards tayo!"

cla: shit! ANG HIRAP NUN YUNG PINAKAKINAIINISAN MONG TAO SA BAHAY AT PINAKAAYAW MONG NAKIKITA, BAKA MAKASAMA MO PA SA WORK!

guys! I'm just releasing my frustrations and sobrang inis talaga...GRRRRRR!!!! if you only knew dyosmeng maria clara! nako!

isa siyang masamang tanders at malaking kulangot!hehe!SAMA! inis talaga akez! yun yon!

È troppo presto per me a dire ti amo?

2008-08-07T09:31:00.000-07:00

subtitle please???

CLA: hmph! Why would I translate it in English anyway?hahaha!

Thanks to my Italian friend named Paul who helped me out with this one... This is the question I want to ask that person (Mr. KM) but the thing here is I'm chicken-out just like Courage the Cowardly Dog. Oh God!hahaha! I formulate this question in English but my former neighbor and friend Paul helped me to translate this in Italian. Guys, I don't speak Italian or understand Italian but I find the language much challenging second to French. Hehe!:)

Anyway, Paul is an Italian guy who studies here in the Philippines but he is originally from Italy (and Iran as well if I am not mistaken). He is going to be a future dentist in Italy. So Italian girls, better watch out for him after three years coz this good lookin' friend of mine is going to have a good brush and check on your teeth and gums!hehehe!=)

BACK TO THE ITALIAN QUESTION...

Honestly, I am quite doomed right now maybe because I am having my period. hahaha! Everything was just fast that is why I wonder on the answers he might respond if I translate it in English. Guys, my guy does not understand Italian, owkie??hehe!

I just happened to read some philosophy books and I became quite alarmed towards the thing I really feel... Mr. K.M is right; lets see what will happen the moment he comes home here next year. By that time, maybe that so-called Italian question is NOT anymore TOO early to ASK or TOO late to CONSIDER.

two words :)

2008-08-06T12:50:00.000-07:00

hahahaha!

this is for all the posers and haters around the block!hahahah!

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me and my super friend agilus!

and for all deceitful and hypocrite bitches and skanks out there! and for some guys and girls who were born to be an asshole without a cause!lol!=) try having an assessment at yourselves first before you look into the other's shit.

oh this is just a reminder to maintain fucking off my life...hehe!

that's all!hahahahha!

u know u love me

xoxo

-ASS-

Who is Mr. K.M?

2008-08-06T06:07:00.001-07:00

Just to give you an overview here is my very wafu Mr. Kangaroo Man. Hehehe! Pose pa lang, I'm gonna faint na! hahaha!=p

Alam ko lahat kayo naiintriga kung sino siya, duh vah?? Oh well I'm sorry Mr. K.M, don't worry hindi kita totally irereveal. Wafu talaga ng pose...I lAv it!hehehe! Mwah!=) nah just playin..scroll down below and makikita niyo siya...

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DYANNNAANNN (sfx: drum rolls!)!!!eto siya!hahaha! sorry Mr. K.M I'm still in a sick leave mode and I'm super bored eh I saw your pics, I edit it and since maraming gustong makaalam kung sino ka...pinost ko na rin dito!haha! sorry! don't worry you're identity will not be revealed!hehehe!*peace!* mwah!=)

wala na kong masabi... wag ka ng magpacute dahil wafu ka nga!wag sabi makulit eh! OO wafu ka, tungek!haha!;p

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kung mabasa mo to, bahala ka kung ano gusto mong isipin... o yan libreng edit ng pics for you!haha!;p

kaloka showbiz at blind item pa!

teka...

blind item nga ba??heheh

peste! miss lang kita ulul!=p

abangan...

if I were YOU ??(kung ako ikaw!)

2008-08-05T07:23:00.000-07:00

ano sasagutin mo pag ikaw tinanong ka ng ex mo ng mga ganitong questions??

1. Why did you let me go?

Oh yeah right talk to my hand and see what it tells! F*ck you!haha!;p oops, actually you are the one who let me go and thanks for that!;p

2. I still love you..

awwww...really??don't worry,I LOVED you too.haha!

3. When did we last talk?
i don't know ba't mo inaalala?lol!haha!

4. Will you go out with me?

no thanks I have a sched with my boyfriend!*grin!*

5. Hey, can i give you a ride?

I can walk on my own and ayoko pa na maging utang na loob ko pa ang gas ng car mo!excuse me??haha!

6. I cannot keep my promise to you...

since when did you kept your promises?haha!

7. My friends say we don't look good together..
I know... Im the beauty and you are the BEAST!haha!

8. You have changed..

talaga?thanks.haha!;) actually its not for you eh.hehe

9. Can we get back together?

ngek ngek mo!ulul!dial 1-800-ASAKAPA.haha!

10. Oh, I knew what this is all about.

ganon?haha!di ko kasi alam eh.hahahA!

11. Don't you realize? You are the one who hurt me!

dude pare tol, pwede ko ng pavulcanize pagmumukha mo sa kapal daig pa gulong!hay tama ka jham!hahahaha!

12. how can u forget our memories??

ahhh..ganito kasi yun..naaksidente ako tapos sumalpok sa isang napakalaking bato..naku I thought I was gonna die na eh but hindi pala ibabalik lang pala ako sa tamang ulirat ko.haha! hmmm...ano nga ba ulit sinasabi mo?hihi!

(salamat kay jham para sa questionnaires na to!)

pseudo relationships in connection with pila-baldeng chocolates!

2008-08-05T01:04:00.000-07:00

There are times I like having this kind of relationships wherein the couple takes time for them to take a good or bad look at each other before they head up to the next level. I also hate it because you cannot simply demand or feel anything perse it is because "hindi naman kayo!" And a bad thing about it is that, that person can simply ditch you away just like a snap without any proper closure. I was once guilty of this; ditching one person who did nothing wrong to me--it is just a simple reason that I don't want to prolong such relationship and admittedly, those are one of the advantages of having a pseudo-relationship. BUT I ditched most of the guys simply because they were born to be an ASSHOLE, airheads, or fuckin' gigolos and maniacs!haha! Bottomline is they are not worth it. Yes, I WAS a professional swinger but that was BEFORE. haha! Anyhow change topic!I was engaged to this kind of relationship simply because I think men were born to be a such. "wala pa SIGURO yung nakakatapat ko!"

eh kung ganitong kagagwapong mga boys ang pipila...NAKO!hahahaha!

Anyhow, sa hinahaba-haba ng panahon ng aking pananahimik eto para akong manok na nilalapitan ng mga palay!!!yeahh! Sige ONE AT A TIME. PILA LANG PO!

At siyempre may nauna sa list of selections di ba? ampotah parang box of chocolates lang..."mamili ka ng mga tsokolate dyan, iha!" Minsan naiinis ako dahil tinatanong ko si batman kung anong gayumang meron itong tsokolateng ito na gustong-gusto ko...kaya lang kahit anong gawin ko sa takdang panahon ko pa pwedeng kunin! Ewan!

Kung baga sa sapatos hindi pa ang takdang oras at okasyon para ito'y suotin at hindi ko rin alam kung magiging maganda ang fit ng sapatos na iyon sa akin...

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Nakakainis minsan na maging single pero masarap din in a way dahil nagagawa ko gusto ko pero mas nakakainis ang maengage sa pseudo-relationship na mega long distance pa na hindi ko alam kung magwowork nga... Tama siya STEADY MUNA... sa akin? oh sige STEADY HITS MUNA... Sabi niya ok lang daw kung magkaroon daw ako ng "iba" dito. SOBRANG OK LANG DAW. Oh God tama ba naman yun?? Sa bagay may point siya kasi hindi naman KAMI kasi nga pseudo lang! Kahit masakit sa loob ko sinabi ko na "ah ok sige ok lang din sa akin kung may iba ka dyan..." ampotah! CLARENCE IKAW BA YAN???!!!EH IKAW ANG DAKILANG SELFISH NA SELOSA NA AT BRATINELLA PA!PRANING PA!!!!

Ang totoo? Hindi ko rin alam ang pumasok sa isipan ko nun. Basta after ko nasabi yun natulala ako at biglang napahirit na PUTANGINA TANGA! Pero ano magagawa ko hindi ko naman ATA pwedeng bawiin mga sinabi ko... I admit madami na siyang nadaanan at maraming beses na rin siyang nadapa kaya niya sinasabi na AYAW KITANG MASAKTAN pero ang totoo? SIYA ANG TAKOT MASAKTAN. Quits lang kami. PAREHO NAMIN AYAW MASAKTAN... at isang dahilan na dito ay ang LAYO. Naiintindihan ko naman siya mga amigo amiga KAYA LANG---eto na naman ako, RUNNING CONTRADICTION MODE NA NAMAN... ayun ONE TIME ok na ko but then may narinig na naman akong sad news about sa kanya kaya ayun CRAYOLA to the max ang lola niyo! Wala nga siyang iba pero mas mapapalayo naman siya at lalu naman di ko na ata siya makikita...:(

Ewan ko kung bakit nabulabog mundo kong nanahimik. Shit! Nagiging matalinghaga na ako mga amigo amiga!haha! Lintik na pag-ibig yan parang kidlat lang ayon kay brownman revival. Sino nga ba ang tinutukoy ko?? At hanggang saan nga ba makakarating ito??

Abangan...

P.S
Long distance pseudo-relationships + an idiot cranky pseudo-girlfriend is a bad equation.

in connection with crayola and davis paint!

2008-07-31T11:58:00.000-07:00

after my so-called crankiness last week and made windang to the other guy who is in the isle of the kangaroos and made fun of a friend here because I was little bit nakainom na due to silly grandmatador with matching coke, I can say I am hell of a steady person and thanks to Tempura Snack, yosi, little alak, coke together with my fellow amigos and amigas who joined me sa topak mode ko during that time and dahil sa lintik na green meaningful joke ni dino't kate--OK NA AKO NOH!...

To be honest I was getting praningzer z all the time dahil maybe malapit na naman dumating ang red tide. Oh God! PMS! Nope, its just not so-called PMS lang, nabuhusan lang ako ng toyo ni batman at I'm so inis to myself na to the point is not anymore best mga amigo amiga!hayyy!

Hay ayoko talaga kay crayola ever churvaness at kemerkemerlou!shit! Ano ba? I don't want to paint the town blue due to the misunderstanding at sa topak ko..hayyyy!!!

Pero I paint the town yellow and davis pintura ginamit ko at hindi CRAYOLA!!!EXCUSE ME?! KAsi medyo nagparamdam ng konti si Kangaroo MAn at akala ko yun na yun...just like bula na suddenly made wala na...hehe! I am so hiya to Kangaroo Man that I don't know how to make paliwanag to the reactions I had--and I myself feel so inis talaga about it--I hate myself dahil dun--hay I am so labo talaga ever!blurry!hahaha!

God thank you!

hehe!

bitin ba?

abangan ang susunod na kabanata...

tips according to Policious

2008-07-31T11:44:00.000-07:00

TIPS WHEN CLARENCE IS CRANKY!?!

tales of clarence daracan when cranky... wehehehehe

1. Wag mo pansinin, ayaan mo dumakdak hanggang mapagod siya (as if, hellar! in your dreams)

2. tapalan mo ng pagkain ang bibig niya para tumahimik siya CHOCOLATE!!!

3. sabihan mo, psst may gwapo oh (sabay mapaptingin siya) after a few seconds dadakdak ulit

4.pagka bigay the food, sermonan mo na, bigyan mo siya ng sandmakmak na yosi

5.wag ka makipag argue sa kanya dahil hindi nag reregister sa utak niya, para tumahimik defense mode yan pag depress

6.yayain mo mag inom makakalimutan niyan lahat ng problem niya

7.kung di pa rin uubra, patugtog ka ng trance hahahaha at tutulugan ka niyan sa hilo wehehehehe

8.magdala ka pillow kasi hanggang umaga dadakdak yan, baka makatulugan mo na eh buhay pa diwa niya

signs that she's cranky / horny.teeeheee

tulala-bangag-gutom-naghahanap ng yosi
TANTRUMS-naghahanap chocolate!
any boys dur!?!
nagyaya sa verde/legroom/plato o kung saan man may inuman

nako pola!halos sapul ha?!hahaha!

V.I.P request ng amiga kong si Pola

2008-07-31T10:28:00.000-07:00

* TOTOO ang chismis ok po kami ng lola niyong si POla. Kung may balak manira ang ibang bilat dyan, manigas kayo!hahahaa!;p

WHAT TO DO WHEN POLA IS CRANKY?
--This is her request na pagbibigyan ko dahil matagal kami hindi nagbalitaan ng baklang to... Hitad ka bakit ngayon ka lang??hahaha!
Anyhow alam na alam niyo naman mga amigo amiga pag itong friend ko eh nabuhusan ni Batman ng toyo..Naku!

Signs when Pola is in a toyo mode:
* Kunot and noo
* Lumalaki butas ng ilong
* Sudden killer silence
* Medyo nanlalamig
* Medyo namumutla ang bakla
* Bigla siyang lumalaki...nagiging megaphone ang ngala- ngala pag outburst!
* TANTRUMS! nako mga amichie that is not Pola when she is cranky!!!HEHEHE!;p

BACK TO THE TOPIC...

What to do nga ba??
* Best example na dyan ang simpleng pag bukas ng tetra na di niya mabuksan...pag three attempts di nabuksan yun kelangan buksan, kunin ang lintik na tetra pack AT BUKSAN! For sure, magtatantrums na yan!hehehe! PREVENTION IS BETTER THAN CURE IKA NGA!HAHAHA!;p
*Manahimik ka kung ayaw mong mabanatan..."that is a golden rule...PAG TINOYO LOLA NIYO!haha!
*Tumango lang at makinig...maging shock absorber...
*Pwede kang magdala ng ice cream...
*Yayain mong mag-internet
*Magturo ng gwaping na makikita!hahaha!
* Ilayo ang lahat ng gamit na pwedeng itapon!
*Pwede rin yayain uminom...
*Bawal humirit!
*Hayaang mag-TANTRUMS...bigyan mo ng sariling mundo and NOT SPACE!

after that???

POLA: Cla, kain tayo!Magbarbeque tayo dun! (sabay pinangtuturo ang nguso!)
CLA: ayan ang self-supporting na lablyf! NAKO! tara GORA tayo may lulukis dun! (ahem!)

i miss you pola!!!;)

before sunrise...

2008-07-29T09:56:00.000-07:00

There's a wind that blows in from the north,

And it says that loving takes it's course.

Come here.

No I'm not impossible to touch,

I have never wanted you so much.

Come here.

Have I never lay down by your side?

Baby, let's forget about this pride.

Come here. Come here.

Well, I'm in no hurry.

You don't have to run away this time.

I know that you're jimmied,

But it's gonna be all right this time.

*****

i'll post my comment next time... I'm not prepared to elaborate things yet but whatever it is on this song or poem--that is what I truly feel and I badly hate myself about it...no further explanations...

WHAT TO DO WHEN CLA IS CRANKY....

2008-07-26T08:15:00.000-07:00

Let her be alone. If she walks out, hayaan mo lang dahil babalik yun-yun nga wag mong susundan pero minsan ok din sundan mo timplahin mo lang!FOR SURE!hahahaha!;p

Shut up and Listen. For sure tatalak muna yun with matching matinding puff with her yosi.

Let her be silent. In short, don't bug her TOO much.

Don't touch her! Meaning? Don't hug her and don't literally touch her or show too much console. She hates it.hahahaha!

Brace yourself coz bawat isang hirit mo pwedeng may SAMPUNG HIRIT YAN...haha!

Ang pwede?Magtanong ka kung BAKIT.

Reasons why? It's her defense mechanism.

AFTER FEW HOURS??

Cla: tara bakla kain tayo! NAgutom ako eh. Gutom na ako!

pucha gutom lang pala!

si Crayola at si Cla

2008-07-26T07:10:00.000-07:00

WHO SAY'S I LOVE CRAYOLA??

Shit kahit sino ayaw magkacrayola ever to the max na super kahiya coz I was at the mall getting all cranky and almost out of my normal sanity. Windang ang lola mong si Kate. Sakto washable pa man din ang crayolang nasa picture. I don't usually make crayola in the public its simply because its soooo nakakahiya! Duhhh?? What I did is a freakkin' social suicide but what can I do hindi ko na kaya eh. I just want to burst out dahil sa mga infos na nakakarating sa ken and siguro overwhelmed ako. *A BIG BIG SIGH!* I look like a kid na hindi binigyan ng laruang gusto o ng candy na gustong kainin. Shit! I admit its the very first time na nanyari to and yes, I colored the street with crayola crayons when I was fuckinn' drunk and high--way way back and before (ampotah redundant na iyan!)!haha! Don't ask kung ilan na ang mga bloopers and miseries ko dahil infinite na yan,inday! At namamanhid na ako. *hay!* And do you ever wonder why I colored SM MALL with crayola??AND TAKE NOTE: MATINONG TODO si CLARENCE--not drunk or crunk. High lang siya sa yosi na ubos na baga niya! At bakit??HAYYYY!!!ANG BABAW!As in!

Dahil sa crayola ever ang bakla at emo mode and windangers mode pa na parang higit pa ang pendulum at panahon at allergies kung atakahin ng bad mood. B.V (Bad Vibes yun mga tol!).hahaha! Admittedly, di ako ang nag-iisang makulay ang buhay at hindi lahat ay dahil sa sinabawang gulay! Pakshet!Harrrrr!All quiet si bakla kahit nagpapacute sa kanya si Miguelito Jose ay wa epek pa din dahil dehins niya talaga type yung lulurki na yun (pwede vuhh???). Nanibago ang lahat dahil sa sudden at nakakatakot niyang katahimikan. Truth is, mahirap kasi magsalita. One of the valid reasons is that hindi ko alam kung paano ako mag-uumpisa and pangalawa- ayokong magsalita ng hindi maganda dahil bad vibes ako nun. One of the weaknesses I have is I'm having a hard time expressing myself in regards to what in the F I really feel. I'm afraid. I'm scared. I'm afraid if I tell this person on how much I feel for him, it will spoil everything that we have though on the other hand, he admits he feels the same but not into that extent-that is why there are times I tend to play guessing games in which alam ko hindi dapat ganun kaya minsan yun din ang reason on why I am cranky--ANG MANHID NIYA KASI! But the question is, what if I don't? I mean what if I am feeling beyond the things that I should feel? I know! I AM IN A HELL OF A STUPID PERSON! I have my reasons why but unfortunately I am having a hard time to explicate those things since it happened so fast and again, its hard to fathom. I made crayola its because I'm pissed about myself and I hate all of these things I am feeling.

aBANGAN ang susunod na kabanata...

Pampa with L.O.V.E!

2008-07-22T07:56:00.000-07:00

Who would have thought that a year has already passed? It's like when reflecting on the past events of my life, I never even thought that God can fix things within a snap-I mean within a snap of year!hehe!A lot of things has changed since last year... And I would like to extend my hands and love to those people who continuously believes in me and accepts and loves me despite of the stupid mistakes I did in the past. It is a cliche but I am only human. I know how to realize things and make up for those mistakes. I learned to see things clearly out of the box and accept the fact that this is how the world goes that is why its ROUND! Changes? Hmmmmm... It is one of the permanent things here on earth, dear. If some people does not believe on changes specifically with the positive changes, they (or you) are the one WHO is hopeless and not me. I thank God that I was not born a hypocrite and learn to accept things as they are. hehe! People? Even if I had separation anxiety, I learned that if that person is as worthless or worst that an asshole...Oh God please!!! Don't think twice to dump that person. If that person has hurt you once or twice, she or he can do it at one more round and he or she will ruin your ass. Trust me on that one. The bottomline is, you just have to learn on how to choose people to be a part of your life...

*****

I am not proud of the things I did or even ashame of it because if not for those mistakes, I will not be the person that I am now. Besides, I learned on how to assess myself well with the help of the people here who I learned to love and cherish because all of them are worthy people to be a part of my life. As of this moment, I am proud to say that after all, MY LIFE IS NOT ANYMORE FUCKED UP! Thank God! Reasons why I can't leave this hometown? SImple. Everything is here and I got no more to ask for. I learned how to be contented with what I have here. So far, God is giving me almost everything. My family is here, my work is here, my bffs are here and of course give it a little spice that will make it complete and that is what you call L.O.V.E.=) I found it all here... and now...I can proudly say MANYAMAN KENI PAMPANGA!=)

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Pampa babee!

Life maybe simple and most of the time monotonous here but I learned to love and appreciate it. From a student turned a crazy-ass-bitch to a hardcore party girl up to a simple working person who got herself up from her failures. Believe it or not, this is me...NOW! I may sound mayabang but who cares? I'm just making an update for the guilty bitches and assholes who did me wrong and blah blah blah...NO COMMENT!hahahaha!lol!=p

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Learning the art of L.O.V.E for self!

I learned to love myself again after those lowest points in my life and again thanks to all those people (you know who you are!) and God for helping me out and for being very patient with me especially during the time I am getting over my shit!haha!I love myself more and I love the changes. haha!=) and if some people cannot accept those changes? hmmmm...I don't give a damn since I am not going to earn a dime from insecure and deceitful skanks around!hahaha!=) This is me and the world is just round dear and that is the end of it. In short, MANTUN KAYU SARILI YUNG YATU!hehehehe!=p If my past matters to you well damn don't be such a hypocrite bitch or a manwhore since all of us has a shit. hehe! I maybe and can be the craziest asshole around when I wanted to but most likely ONLY for the people who matters to me.

What did Pampanga do to me as per Jay Maala's question? Dude, a lot!

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Cheezzzeemax!

Latest news? haha! You can always check my blog for updates to give you an "overview" but sometimes it feels to good to shut up or mambitin. hahahaha! Gossips and hearsays? Go ahead and create one and I'll be more than glad to confirm things for you... hahahaha!=)

you know you love me

xoxo

ASS!

a message to all of my girls!

2008-07-18T00:43:00.000-07:00

A message from GOD,
No man can ever claim ever claim you unless he claims you from Me!
I reserved a man for you who has My Heart & loves Me even more than he will love you...
I won't give you unless he asks you from Me!
Soon you will know him, I have the perfect time.
You're my princess,
...my daughter
Let no prince claim you unless he asks you from My Hand...
for I... am your Father, the King of the Kings!
You My princess,
...is worth loving..ü

I believe someone is destined for each and every one of us in which it will test everything: love, trust, character and etc... Each and every one of us is being polished like diamonds in order for us to be matched to the person who also goes on similar processes. And the only person who has all the power to make this happen is our Supreme Being. God. It may sound really really cheesy but it is true. If you don't believe in it, its none of my business. hehe. lol!=) This shows that every person and every incident has its own reason and for me, if it will lead me to the right person or to the man who is destined for me to accept, to love and to be with (and of course that person will do the same for me and accepts me for who I was, who I am and who I am going to be in the future) then maybe this is the perfect message and prayer to me and to all my girlfriends out there!hehe!=) By the way, I just got this message when I happen to browse thru jhase's site.hehehe!=)

emo mode ang baCla @ ang mahiwagang mensahe ni tentaypatis!

2008-07-17T23:50:00.000-07:00

"If you are in love right now and you know that person loves you just as much, hold on to that person as long as you can and consider yourself extremely lucky because some people will go through an entire lifetime never knowing what it feels like to be truly loved..."

-tentaypatis: and according to her dumugo ang kaniyang nose ng iquote itei!hehe.

pwede bang pakisagot po ang survey na nasa gilid ng page ko?hehehe!=p thanks!;p

Besh, oo nga naman ang hirap nga naman humanap ng taong makakasama mo... sa bagay dumarating yan at hindi nga daw hinahanap... minsan naiisip ko masuwerte ako dahil binigay ni Lord mga gusto ko kaya lang may kulang pa rin... *sigh!* I got work, wala naman masyadong problems sa family, medyo bumabawi na ng konti financially (kahit papano!haha!), I got set of very good friends here and there, andyan ka besh kahit malayo ka at once in a blue moon pero cool pa rin (miss u!), at may konting lablyf na naku naman Lord yun naman ang kulang na sinasabi ko dahil napakalayo niya! hehe! Naku baka sapakin ako ni batman (si Lord) dahil nagrereklamo na naman ako... Ang hirap ng ganito gustong gusto ko na siyang makita, mahawakan in flesh pero matatagalan pa!hehe! Besh, "what you sow is what you reap!" cheesy man nasa bible yan. hehehe!;) in short parang karma lang yan "what goes around just comes around" I know you're ok now, takot ka lang makipagcommit ulit.hehe! Ganyan din ako eh! hehe... Eto na to besh... hehehe! Kelangan ko ng comment mo!hehehe!;p

Words of Wisdom ni cLA

2008-07-17T22:47:00.000-07:00

"It's ok to look back at the trash you've thrown away, but never pick it up again.
-It's dirty."
*MAKES SENSE!*

Would you think twice to pick up those trash you see on the pic? Of course not right? Pwera na lang kung mahilig ka sa latak o basura o tira-tira (oops wala sana matamaan!hehe!) It's ok too look at it but never ever attempt to touch it though. It's dirty nga!kulit!haha! It's ok to look at those people whom you have met and be with but in the end, they caused you something that is not good. If those people can hurt you once they can even hurt you for the nth time without thinking about it. Best solution? ditch. throw them away even if kung yun pa ang nagpapasaya sa'yo before eh kung kapalit magpapakatanga ka at ilulugmok mo sarili mo sa isang basura, ikaw ang talo hindi siya. haha!serious ha? pucha common sense lang to!hahahaha!=)

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isa pang hirit!

"We all get heavier as we get older because there is a lot more info in our heads. So I'm not FAT! I'm just really intelligent and my head couldn't hold anymore so it started filling up the rest of me. That's my story and I'm sticking to it!" =)

who said this? awwww... My favorite fat cat Garfield! haha!=) So what kung tumataba tayo eh kung yun ba ang nagpapatalino why nots coconuts and butternuts duh vah?hahahaha! nah! seriously mamili kayo mga lulukis maganda at sexy na babae pero ubod naman ng tanga o maganda medyo chabinge pero ahem...yun na yun!hahaha!=)

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ang aking favorite!

LOVE just ONE person. . .

And JUST taste the rest. . .

-very inspirational! haha!

ano ba?? para maiba naman...=p it's a very a wise thought especially sa talipandas at mga hitad dyan (ooopps baka may natatamaan!).haha! stick to one person and you'll see the results!hehe!=p

miles away..so so miles away

2008-07-16T06:54:00.000-07:00

Putik ako na ata ang gullible sa lahat ng gullible... ewan ko ba kung bakit ako ganito ngayon.CArried away lang ba ako? Pero hindi eh. Putik ang dami naman mga lalake dito sa lupain ng pampanga bakit siya pa? Hindi lang bundok ang layo namin...Oceans and Seas pa isama mo na rin ang China Sea at Atlantic Ocean ang layo namin. Nahihirapan ako pero masaya din at the same time nalulungkot minsan... Salamat kay "toinks" na dati kong hindi binibigyang pansin hanggang sa pagpapahamak ni Kate na ibugaw ako ng buhay sa kulot na to. In lab na ba ako? Mukhang malabo. Ewan. Pero bakit ganito nararamdaman ko? Hindi ko mawari kung ano man yun! Puteeek! ano ba yan lola ang lalim na? Lalim na nga salita mo ah hindi mahukay! Kaya ba namin hintayin ang isa't isa ng isang taon? Shit di lang isang araw, di lang isang linggo't buwan. TAON pare!TAON! Tama siya marami pang mangyayari at pareho di alam kung ano yun! Ang labo talaga ni Lord...akala ko ba gusto niya ako magseryoso na pero bakit itong taong to ayaw niya akong maging seryoso sa kanya? Sa bagay pareho lang kami na ayaw masaktan o magkasakitan so I understand him naman for that one...Self-contradiction itetch na naman!Lord helllppp!!!Naku!isinisigaw ko na to ng todong todo! Sino si toinks? Pakshet kayong mga hitad!keber niyo!hahahaha!Only chosen friends lang nakakaalam kung sino itong imaginary lulukis ko na hindi imaginary!Labo talaga!Shit!Amp!Wag na wag niyong masabi sabi sa ken na thrilling yang set up na yan dahil pagbabangasin ko mga pagmumukha niyo!waaaaaahhhh! oo inaamin ko thrilling din pero NAMAN! NAMAN! AT NAMAN! PAMATAY! Lord, hellpp lang us naman kaming dalawa ni toinks!haha! "Magiging bato na lang ba tayo sa buhangin??" Shit! By the way mga amiga huwag niyo na alamin kung sino siya baka mabulilyaso na naman eh!*sigh!*

abangan ang susunod na kabanata....

the end result of boredom!

2008-07-11T08:57:00.000-07:00

what is your favorite line to say when your drunk?

"o fffuuuccck am speaking in straight english!" hahaha

how many drinks before you're tipsy?

before madami eh now konting drink lang medyo hilo na ko..ewan ko lang!haha!

what kind of books do you like to read?

Everything and anything. Click my profile and you'll know what books I read.;)

spontaneous or planned?

both but more on spontaneous.haha

do you know how to play poker?

yup.you want to play?haha!

what do you carry with you at all times?

My big kikay bag.

what do you miss most about being little?

less complications.simple.

are you happy with your given name?

its too long!haha!but its good!haha!

have you ever been in a play?

yes when i was in highschool but in college i was extremely passive but crazy.haha!

do you consider yourself to be a nice person?

yes but I am also a hell of crazy bitch around.hahaha!

do you spend more time with your girlfriend/boyfriend or your friends?

more with friends since i dont have someone whom i can officially call bf (BOYFRIEND OR FIANCE).hahahah!

what's one thing you wish you could do but can't?

fly--for me to travel places or to visit some unique places!hahahahah!

what is your ideal marriage location?

ask me that question when I'm engaged.

what’s one instrument you wish you could play?

piano and violin

what do you order at a bar?

frozen margarita, tequila sunrise, tequila, jaiggermaister (tama ba?haha),bacardi and of course ABSINTHE.hahaha!

how do you keep fit?

fit and right drink lang yan.hahaha!duh?I don't have any form of exercise except walking!

careers in mind?

its a secret muna kasi basta....hahaha!

Give the traits you hate in a person?

envious, deceitful and hypocrite bitches and man-whores around who loves to come clean where in fact their lives are all fuccccckkkeddd up now and pretends to be a so-called mature enough to face such things wherein fact they are just opinionated skanks (and contradicting ang mga sinasabi sa kinikilos.labo di ba?hahaha!)!insensitive, backstabbers and super narrow minded people.haha! ooops...baka may natatamaan na naman ako?haha!as i've said no apologies!matamaan GUILTY!LOL!=)

what are u planning to do this weekend?

ahem in case chat with....talk with...hahaha!God ano ba ituuu???;p then of course work!

do u club?

I used to now aside from being busy as a bee,I don't want to give time on it now since sawa na ko though minsan kakamiss din.

do u smoke?

yep.guilty!lol!;p

are u happy?

Yes but I am missing someone and I'll be more than happy if that person is right here with me:)

when will you marry?

late twenties??

when did you last drink alcohol?

-2 months ago?can't remember.I don't drink na talaga.

your type of food?

Italian,Asian,Pinoy

According to Carl Sandberg

2008-07-08T09:19:00.000-07:00

Time is the coin of your life. It is the only coin you have, and only you can determine how it will be spent. Be careful lest you let other people spend it for you. --- Carl Sandburg

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BUTI PA ANG ORAS DE GINTO LAGI!SHET!haha!

la na ko macomment!antok na ko!bahala kayong matulog!SLEEPING IS PLATINUM!SHET!LOL!

to my besh,kate,seg,davey and eckow!

2008-07-06T08:54:00.001-07:00

ZOOM AT YOUR OWN PLEASURE!YEAHHH!!!

Mga amigo and amiga mamili na kayo sa mga palakang to! Libreng libre paburger lang kayo!haha!

To my dear friends, ang daming lulukis sa mundo at isa na ang mga ito!hahaha!;p mamili na kayo! murang-mura lang!haha!;p KAte, besh, seg, and eckow--these guys are for you--malay mo isa dito makatuluyan niyo!Windang di ba?hahahah!; Dyosme katawan pa lang buffet na!!!hmmmmm...yun yon eh!hahaha!;p Libre din sila pangarapin. Aba! Dapat sila mangarap sa inyo and hindi kayo ang nangangarap para sa kanila? Duhh? Anak ba sila ng Diyos??JAckpot nila noh?!hahaha!;p

Nga pala sabihin niyo sa akin kung mocha cake ba yan o brazo de mercedes yan! Syempre dapat I know!hahaha!*peace!*

La na ko masabi! Basta I love you all! Muah!:)

health advisory plus ultimate blooper mania of 2008--its my shit!

2008-07-06T07:48:00.000-07:00

Enlarge at your own risk!

First of all pasintabi po sa mga kumakain dyan. If you can't take what in the heck I am going to tackle about, you are free to close this page! We are on a democratic country by the way and I am pertaining to all of the pinoys here and there!hellow!haha!;p

Honestly, I don't know how to start it but basically most of us are ashame na minsan we are so natatae na! Yung tipong nagtataasan na lahat ng balahibo mo, naninigas ka na sa lamig at pinagpapawisan na rin ng malamig dahil hindi mailabas ang sama ng loob mo! Namimilipit ka na sa sakit at hindi mapakali sa isang lugar gusto mo gawin mo ito ng masinsinan sa isang lugar! Dude, simple lang sagot dyan; natatae ka lang!haha! Naku diretsahan na tayo--usapang tae naman!

I admit first time kong nagkalat sa office dahil dito. Damn, I was sooo fuccckkkinn constipated for almost three days and I was wondering why since I do eat a lot. Aba, inaantay ko talaga ang araw na yun pero hindi talaga dumadating hanggang sa nanyari ang hindi ko inaasahang manyari. Shit! I was in a middle of my call to a customer when I felt something funny within my body system. Napapabooty shake na ako nun and again usual symptoms of natatae occured. I had no choice during that but to make a lame excuse to the customer so that I can sue him away in order for me to take the said shit out of me.haha! I transfer the customer to another department dahil mas matindi ang tawag ng kalikasan kaysa kay customer! Damn talaga!

I thought I was going to faint during that time dahil I was also feeling dizzy dahil sa putik na taeng yan! woooohhh!!! I went to the washroom all by myself very secretly kasi nakakahiya nga naman na ibrodkast pa di ba? But when I got there, damn! Bakit walang lumalabas??I stayed almost 10 mins pero wala pa rin...I got no choice but to get out--I'm still feeling natatae though! that sucks! really really sucks! Eh may tendency akong himatayin pag hindi talaga nailabas!hay!

To cut the story short, I approached Donna (my teammate) at the pantry while she was taking her lunch. I whispered " DOnna, malaki problema ko! NAtatae ako pero ayaw lumabas!" then she asked "Why? Ok let's get a medicine" SO she approached Tam and thank God talaga and Thank Tam kasi binilhan ako ng dulcolax...

Pero teka lang!!! All I thought was kateam ko lang nakakaalam ng sikreto ko! After I let my poop out! Somebody shouted and clapped "YES SUCCESS! ANONG ANAK MO?" Punyemas halos lahat ng BATCHMATES Ko nagstanding ovation! Sabay hirit ko naman na"its a baby girl SHIT!" Oh myyy!!!so nakakahiya!graabbbeee!!!

by the way, after dropping dulcolax --nawala nga constipation ko nagdiarrhea naman ako!labo talaga di ba?haha! and take note yung second session nilabas sa rob place!hahaha!thank you kate for helping me out!haha!

two words for that: KABOOM KABOOM!

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Lesson to that incident? Hmmmm...huwag ng mahiya tumae o sabihing teka lang tatae ako ah!Basically HUWAG PIGILIN dahil talagang masama...It's because may nanyaring incident sa friend ko na kung ikukuwento ko parang laughtrip pero grabe its not funny at all! And I bet all of you does not want to experience what she went thru dahil sa hindi pag-tae!grabbbeee!

She was actually rushed to the hospital about 2 weeks ago out of that reason. Prior to that thing 2 weeks na rin siyang hindi nakakapoop and whenever she tries to poop umaatras tae niya paitaas..imagine that? super constipated na di mo malaman. Ayun dahil naospital siya naudlot ang gimik ng lola mo.hehe! Anyhow, what happened was dahil sa toxins na nakastore sa body system niya at di nilalabas ng excretory system, ayun naapektuhan ang blood cells (or eclavu) ng lola mo, nagkalagnat and all that and halos nagkaroon o muntik ng magkaroon ng infection yung blood cells niya ata due to the said freaakkkinn toxins! Grabe tindi pala ng impak ni tae!shit nga talaga! At mga amigo dito ako nawindang! She went thru a LACERATION (tama ba spelling?) procedure wherein may ipapasok lang naman na super laking suppository (na halos sinlaki daw ata ng t*t* ng kabayo) sa ANUS or sa BUTTHOLE para mailabas lahat ng toxins sa katawan niya. I can't simply imagine what she went thru! Kaloka! And take note para na rin tinira ng bading nun! Trivia lang: according to may super gay friend nurse--some guys are undergoing this treatment or procedure pag matindi ang pagkakapenetrate sa kanila ng anal sex. And for some girls naman--most of the payat freak models, they can also do this with the supervision of the doctor. KAwindang di ba? So for guys na nagpapanggap na straight then nag-undergo sa process na to--perhaps pwedeng yun ang rason, they are also gays!pamhin!haha!or we just pray na sana out of health reason lang din!hehe!;p

so far ok na siya and advice ko sa kanya? Bakla! Wag na kasi masyadong bumisyo at tumae ka sa oras!hahahaha! Timawa ka kasi! Heheeh! Naahhh! Kiddin! Seriously, I know she is ok now!hehe! Eat a lot of fiber! Kingina mga cliche's lang naman eh!haha!;p But seriously we need to follow it most of the time.

Ohhhhh ohhhhh set me free....release me now!!!!

-dulcolax!

APPLYING IT NAMAN TO LIFE'S SHIT PERSPECTIVE: WE NEED TO THROW AWAY THE TOXINS THAT DEFINITELY HAS NO PURPOSE ON IT EXCEPT ONLY FOR WASTE--IF NOT IT MIGHT KILL YOU!HAHA!* MAKES SENSE!* ;P

ang bagal talaga...sigh!

2008-07-05T05:29:00.000-07:00

ang bagal talaga ng panahon. yung mga taong gusto mong makita matagal pa bago mo

makita.Ewan! Ano na naman itong nanyayari sa ken. Honestly hindi ako sanay na ganito, kung

kailan lumipas na ang panahon at hindi ko naghahanap ng matitipuhan, mukhang doon naman

may dumarating. Ang labo di ba? Sa bagay malay nga natin...Ika nga ni Bob Ong, ang tamang

bagay saka tamang panahon wala na ring saysay kapag wala na yung tamang tao. Ang tao

pwedeng mag-adjust pero ang bagay at panahon hindi.---Isa lang naman siguro ibig sabihin nito

nasa sayo lang yun kung igagrab mo yung mga opportunities o pagkakataon na nasa harapan mo.

Lubusin mo ang panahon. Pakshet!AKo ba ito?haha!;p Back to the topic... May tao akong gustong

makita........basta yun na yun!hahahahaha!;p Iniisip ko lang, ano kaya ang mga manyayari pag

nagkita kami?hehe!Sa totoo lang walang nakakaalam kahit siya hindi niya rin alam.haha! Bahala

na,Lord! Hehe!:) Wish to see you soon or next year?? hmmmm...You know who you are...hehe!

It's for you,CREATURE!haha!;p

2008-07-05T05:17:00.000-07:00

a line from carrie bradshaw and my personal response to it.:)
i made this blog around last 3 or 4 months ago...i just decided to repost it today...:)

"Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. And if you're very lucky, a plane ride away."
-carrie bradshaw-

Now with full acceptance, I am finally letting go... I can't simply spend my time thinking about a certain person who doesn't care at all or is selfish and narrow-minded to believe on such hearsays... A friend was right its not really worth it so I guess that is it... By the way,there is a constant change, even emotions do change.Tam (my friend) was right, feelings can be so dynamic that it can change within a snap! I guess God has already answered my questions to my answers why certain things happened. He has another plan and I bet it is a better or the best one (and it goes the same way with that person). I may not know since all circumstances are unpredictable. At least, I can confidently say to all and even to the supreme being that I have loved this person with all my heart. And if in fidelity matters, God knows I didn't betray him to anyone else! If you are reading this I am telling you that! Maybe we are really not meant to be. It is all maybe or perhaps because both of us never know what happens next. I never thought you can be like that- judgmental in a way since you never ask anything with regard to the things that you hear. It is so unfair and you didn't seem to have the objectivity or an open-mind to listen. You just rely to the things you first heard. I guess I am right. You never did loved me anyway because if you really did, you are not going to be that SELFISH. Truth is I hate myself for grieving for someone whom I know doesn't really deserve it. You wanted to be loved,right? I did that to you and sadly until now, I still do have those feelings but isn't just going to be like this to be stagnant in my own emotions? I tried reaching out but then you were refusing me. I guess time is already enough for both of us to know such things. There are so many things I wanted to say but then I am having a hard time to explicate those thoughts into words. One of the things that I can say right now is both of us were already hurt and we can' t anymore take back on what happened. With regard to the past mistakes that I did, if those things matter to you and you magnify me based on those stuff-if it makes me less of a person in your own perspective, well I guess that is not my problem anymore. It only means one thing--YOU ARE SELFISH and I guess most of them are right--you are not worth it. I deserve better and it goes the same with you. There are so many questions that seems so hard to find the answer.Right now, I just wish you good luck with all your endeavors...I wish you to be happy and hope you can get what you truly deserve. God bless!

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it is NOT ANYMORE MY FAULT IF THE GOSPEL TRUTH SAYS THAT YOU ARE NOT ONLY HORRIBLY UGLY OUTSIDE BUT ALSO INSIDE! GOOD THING I MADE A RIGHT DECISION! THANK GOD AS ALWAYS!;)

oh by the way, you might get sluggish in reading this because I know you don't read....AT ALL!!!haha! KINDLY EXERCISE A LITTLE BIT OF YOUR BRAIN before you hit the gym, hunny!:) matamaan PANGET!HAHAHA!;)

Shits and Convictions--Life!

2008-07-05T05:06:00.000-07:00

I just want to share some different or unique proverbs that I happened to encounter thru a friend...;p

"Nobody's born a virgin coz life be fuckin' us all..."

"Life is like a dick, when things get hard, fuck it!"

it is up to your own conviction or perspective on how you will actually take this.:)

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I'm just going to share something that I am actually listening to Lily Allen's Oh my God!haha!I'm just sharing it but anyways,never mind!After deleting my first two accounts in Friendster and totally ignoring the other two blogsites last year and decided to create a new one all in the same year now, I can say that maybe it is just one of my delusional trips on why I happened to create a blog here.

Everyday or even a second can actually make a big turning point in your life and sometimes it is just better if you let things out through writing-if you cannot express how you feel...I don't know but that is how it is for me...I've tried being a writer since it was supposed to be my profession but I guess or maybe it is just not meant to be---as of this moment!hehehe!If you ask me why simply because I am not a good one though I am trying to be!haha!

Anyway,blogs are basically everything for aspiring and trying hard writers here and that includes me!Perhaps it is much better if experiences whether from work or personal phenomenons are shared here--even if at times grammar is literally wrong!(nagsusuntukan daw ang mga ingles!)

Ito ang nth na walang kwentang blog dito...

AT MAY SUSUNOD PA-na wala din kwenta!hahaha!
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the not-so-famous line from lily allen from oh my God song:
"Great rulers make for greater gloryThe only thing growing is our historyKnock me down I’ll get right back up againI’ll come back stronger than a powered up pac-Man"---this actually happens if someone hurts you!just like pac-man eat' em up with laughter!haha!;p

indie day!

2008-07-04T00:54:00.000-07:00

yehey independence day sa U.S ngayong July 04, 2008! walang calls!training lang mga dude!hahaha!;p Sana ipagbalot man lang tayo ng mga pagkain nitong pesteng kanong lalo na mga tagawhite house!wahaha!amp! mga P.G! Certified Patay Gutom!hahaha!;p pero grabe aga ng shift ko...5 am to 9 am... pusanggala nagreklamo pa ako noh?!hahaha!;) anak na nga ako ng dyos--actually yung team namin mga anak ng diyos according to boss Tam!haha! Take note mo nga naman ang sched plus block sched pa eh etong si darang ronz may hirit pa kaya idol kita mami rhons!hahaha!labs u!hirit pa na "Tam, pwedeng gawin mong weekends yung off natin?" hahahah! Banat naman ni Tam "Dara, super anak na nga tayo ng Diyos pag nanyari yun!hahaha!" wala lang share lang..hehehe!;p maganda naman talaga sched namin..sched ng normal na tao..hahahaha! and of course I love my team!;)

Anyhow mamatay kayo sa inggit!wahaha!;p anyhow, kahit hindi thanksgiving dito sa Pinas...HAppy independence day na rin! ayyy belated pala!hahaha! tska hmmmmm... busy din ako sa independence day; may ichichika muna ako; tungkol ito sa isang amigo na fortunately pili lang ang pagchichikahan ko nito...mahirap na eh baka alam mo na...Naku no need to elaborate mga amigo amiga baka may tamaan na naman at isyu na naman ituuuu!tska mahirap na magtiwala dalang dala na ako sa mga ibang tao dyan at generally sa tao kasi nga mahirap na at huwag ka ng makulit ha?!hahaha!;p

nga pala yellow ang font ng text ng blog kong ito kasi happy happy ang tita mo mga bakla!hahaha!;p mamatay sa inggit ang iba dyan at keber!*bleh!* hahaha!

manyaman talaga keni pampanga jo!hahaha!;p

irreplaceables part ii my girls!

2008-07-04T00:07:00.000-07:00

ayan!!!ang bobongga di ba?hahaha!i'm proud to introduce these girls to you as one of a million bffs i have...somehow, compared to the other friends I had before, I can say that they are the best...Through thick and thin dyan sila kahit minsan madalas akong muntik sapukin ng mga to dahil sa mga katangahan ko but good thing wala ka maririnig sa kanila na judgements or whatsoever...and good thing they are frank enough to tell if there is something wrong about you or if you are making a bad or stupid decision...I badly miss them..grabe! I never thought these people can take a big role in my life...and I would like to thank them for being part of it... Mga AMIGA love ko kayong lahat!!!hehehe!*naks! drama na ituuuu!* hahaha!;p

Let me introduce my very besh TENTAY!!!;) besh, I want to see your orange hair na and by the way, I have a chocolate hair!hahaha! Who would've thought na isa siya sa mga magiging BFFs ko eh we hate each other noon kabataan namin...besh, di ba bungal pa tayo nun? kita mo nga naman ang panahon!hahaha!;p hope to see you sometime!miss you so much!!!muah muah!;) NGa, pala bawal uminom ng ABS-BITTER-HERBS dahil magkakasakit ka sa liver sa kapaitan!hahaha!;p hayaan mo na ang panget na tandercats na yun!eeewww!hahaha!labshu!;) pareho kaming naging sawi sa mga lablyf namin...naku magbest friend nga kami!haha!;p but in God's time may darating na sobrang deserving sa ating mga love right, besh?hehehe!;)

my highschool bestfriend Nikita... Super talentado yan!kita mo nga naman? I wish gumaling na index finger niya para makapagplay siya ulit.hehehe! After long long years of not seeing each other, sino ba naman ang magaakala na sa teletech din kami magtatagpo nito?hahaha!

This was last year at absinthe with me,kit liit, mara, jhase and mitch!

Kit liit, me and jhase at red ribbon in trinoma!hehehe!di halata di ba? Oh Jeeezzz I miss them so bad!:(

The spreadables!Mon, Ka, Pots, Che and I at dema...also taken last year....These are one of the best people whom you can encounter around whether fun times or bad times... They are also part of the SOuth Ave. Gang...Guys, I'll be back in Manila to visit you all...hehehe!

stolen shot ni hacienderong Caloy sa Straight Circle sa Taft.

yes,it's my vice!keber!

2008-07-03T23:48:00.000-07:00

this is a guilty vice I can't remove. I was caught a lot of times by my mom and dad almost got hit and run by them due to this vice...Its my guilty pleasure...It is a cigarette!haha! I don't drink much alcohol but admittedly I do smoke a lot especially now. hahaha!

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Would you believe na nag-stop ako around last year? I stopped for almost 6 months and when I started lighting one again with matching coffee...hell its just pringles!ONCE YOU POP,YOU CAN'T STOP! I started smoking again when I got a work...hehe! nga pala, masarap magyosi pag may kasamang kape---that's according to KAte!haha!

ako yan pag nagyoyosi!hahaha! Sometimes I regret to have tried it though!haha! Pampalubag loob? Hmmm... Hoy ito lang bisyo ko noh?!hahaha! Hindi lang sunog baga ko, abo na baga ko!feeling ko lang!haha!;p Update ko kayo pag magsastop ako.haha!;p I kept on saying that I will stop this vice BUT sadly, I always tend to forget it so I'd rather not keep promises that I cannot do or make.hehe!

heath ledger's death and my own midnight undefined theory...way BACK!

2008-07-03T23:34:00.000-07:00

tsk tsk!!!sorry guys and girls!may he rest in peace!but...he's HOOOTT!

I also felt the same way like other people felt about this news. Shocked. It is an irony but we usually

felt this way when someone at this young age dies especially if it is a prominent person or a celebrity

though on the other hand, we don't even know the person (personally) who passed away. We

symphatize or even emphatize for the close relatives or loved ones that person left behind thru his or

her death and sometimes I even see people being a bit maudlin about it. Quite funny for me though I

understand the fact that death is one of the most devastating and frightful matters to talk about.

Death, as we all know due to unwritten laws (whatever you may call it), is one of the things that

must not be joke about. Anyhow, back to Heath Ledger!"What??Awwww...That is sad.", those are

the precised words I said as far as I can remember. As I opened my account on this site, the

bannered news posted by a friend really caught my attention to the point I was thinking that it was

only probably a practical joke. Due to my so-called skepticism or stupidity, I even searched if the said

news was really true. Damn, I liked Heath Ledger when he did the role for the Brokeback Mountain

and 10 things I hate about you!haha!"Tsk...Sayang!" Based on what I've read, Ledger was found

dead inside his apartment in New York. Police says they found a prescription of sleeping pills near his

body but there was no obvious sign that he committed suicide. In short, his death was probably due

to drug overdose. It was an untimely death as anyone have stated. By the way, he finished a movie

Batman in which he played the role of Joker (which was played by Jack Nicholson before). Wow! I just

can't help comparing Heath to a local actor who also died on the same age, on the same reason

(o.d), at the same time finished a movie (with his ex gf/fiance) before bidding goodbye to all his fans

and finally go to neverland!hehe..;pOne more thing I've noticed and I guess it is a nice topic to

confute about. Most and or all of the people are guilty of this doing when a certain person died; We

are always stating all the goodness that the person did when he was still living. Oh no! Let's put it in

an exagerrated way. Aside from reminiscing every moment that we have on that person, we are so so

guilty of praising that person like he or she was a saint. I don't know if I am hell right about it but it's

just one of my keen-observations from the people I usually encounter. One more irony, most of the

people tend to grief more (or more affected) about the death of that celebrity or that prominent

person rather than their dead relatives or even loved-ones. In the end, they say things as if they

knew the said person very very well. Kindly bear, I'm just creating my own midnight undefined

theory.haha! What if we change or just break the said stereotype and make it the other way around?

Just come to visualize or imagine it. What do you think will be the outcome if we curse that prominent

personality or a politician for being so fuckin' crooked? or curse the highest ranking military general

who killed so many people to strive its hunger for power? or a celebrity who acts like a

primadonna/spinless bitch or a prominent person who was born an asshole? what would it be?... Nah!

I can't imagine it if you ask me but I guess it will be fun. haha! joke!=p Seriously, I can't quite really

imagine it. Its "probably" because I do somehow know how to value a certain person not only when

he or she's forever gone but also when that person is still alive and kickin' ass despite the facts and

some bad conjectures i hear or might hear about him or her!haha!=p Or (maybe) just like any other

people, I do conform with values to these matters though at times they are being hilariously

exaggerating on it. Or I am just one of the people who have a spectacular feeling of happiness about

that person's death because of two things: he/she is not anymore capable of doing something that is

bad or worst and second is that person deserves to rest in peace (*AMEN!*). hehe!=p i pray for

them!*Amen*!=)

SAID

2008-07-03T23:30:00.000-07:00

It is the past tense of the word say. Once you stated a thing or made a description in whatever means or medium, you can't anymore take it back or say "hey, i didn't mean to say that" or "I'm sorry if i 'said' such a thing, binabawi ko na o babawiin ko na lang"...All of us are guilty with this act of having things said and done without even thinking on it. What's been said is already SAID. There is no taking back. I don't know if some people can even discern what I'm trying convey but as I ponder things back, its better to shut up or think things first before saying or even doing it. Secrets and gossips? Hmmmm... Secrets are always secrets but sometimes there are some people whom you can't trust with it especially when it comes to your DDS (Deepest Darkest Secret). The only authorized person who can reveal or confirm a certain secret is the only person who confided it to you or to any person. No one else does. You don't have the right to confirm such things because you are not authorized to do so! C'mon sweetie, it is just a matter of common sense! Now if a certain person can't summon his or herself to pick that up, then his/her brain is probably made up of mire (how sad!). Gossips can only be confirmed BY the person being talked about- that is if you have the guts to ask him or her about it. By the way, all of us have some dirty past or all of us did something in the past that now we consider it as a shit. We may regret some of it that we tend to keep it as a secret but hey, those things do not measure who you really are. It does not make you less of a person no matter how worst you did in the past. What is more important is you learn, you wont do it again (or make the same mistakes) and become a better person each day. Now if some people magnify you based on your juiciest or nastiest or worst DDS or past plus the fact they can't accept you due to those reasons, well its their problem because they were born hypocrites and can never be true to themselves because they think they are so damn perfect or great!haha! A friend reminded me that a certain friend or a lover will be worth loving if there is acceptance no matter how worst you became. A true friend will never bring you down despite the fact you are making a terrible mistake or made horrible decisions in your life. He/She'll be one of your reality-checks since he/she is going to say the truth to you no matter how much it will hurt. Backstabbing? Hmmmm...my point to that is it has no means even if you justify it or no matter how you justify it. Trust and respect are still two of the important ingredients in friendship. Anyways, back to the topic. I don't care whoever hits this blog but whatever the things that I've written here are only reminders for the fool and for the gullible people around. Choose the people you will trust. Sometimes even your closest friend can betray you out of something. Betrayal is the greatest immorality of all in whatever way a person can do it to you. You may never know. A professor once said that you can't anymore take the said things back once you stated it or it finally came out from your mouth that is why we have our brain with us to think. So far that is all,folks!=) We have our own convictions on this issue and it is up to us how we will perceive and handle it.

luminya po tayo!

2008-07-03T23:19:00.000-07:00

FAMOUS LINES!!!

ang reintroduction..

teta: clarence, what is your name?
clarence:leona clarence!
hahahaha!

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THE FAMOUS LETTER K!

elda: ano ba ang spelling ng kempoy's na yan?
ays: "ki" .e.m.p.o.y.s
elda: huh???anong "ki"?
ays: "ki" nga ang kulit! "ki" po ma'am! "ki" (serious na serious!)
elda: cge o"ki"!
*at magmula nun di na ays ang kanyang pangalan, bininyagan na siya sa pangalang "kimpoy" (originally KEMPOY!)
haha!
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let's the play the codes madam!
si Enrique Manuel,Miguelito Jose,Rambolito Carlito at si Raphael Arturo
---mga codenames yan at wala pa ang chinese name!talents and brains behind these names? SI MADAM!!!

AHHH...may bago! Si Salvador Bilibid--ibukod tangi natin itong otoko na to dahil literal daw na mukhang galing ng bilibid itong lolo mo!YOU CAN call him BILL for short!wahahah!;p
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ang umeme...
tam- tam: may umeme! may umeme!
maan: what's umeme?
tam- tam: gusto mong malaman? (big grin!)

*nga pala sa personal ko na lang ikwento ang umeme!wholesome ako eh!hahaha!
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self-support line...

jhayzon: oi malarit kamusta ing lovelife?
leona: oyni self-supporting jo!

translation in tagalog

jhayzon: hoy malandi kamusta ang lovelife?

leona: eto...self supporting bakla!

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abangan ang iba pa...hehehe!

the irreplaceables!

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These are the people who are irreplaceable aside from my family and other friends around. ;)

Windang 1 and Windang 2! Mukha lang kami walang pakialaman sa litratong to pero ang totoo niyan iisa lang mundo namin kaya ayun nagkasundo!haha!Her name is Kate and she is one of my bestfriends and buddies here in Pampanga. It's quite funny on how we met. I didn't know that she is one of my teammates. haha!Solo flight ang lola mo mag-yosi nang bigla niya ako inapproach. At that time heartbroken ako sa isang panget na lulukis at sa isang kaibigan nang isa siya sa mga taong nagtiyaga sa mga kadramahan ko sa buhay!hahaha!;) Salamat sa YOSI at nahanap ko ang isa sa mga totoo kong kaibigan--at isa siya dun..DI TULAD NG IBA DYAN!wahaha!

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during the training!

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here with the team razr of teletech with boss Tam and boss Chris!;) bongga ng pantry di ba?hehehe!;) irreplaceable din ang mga boss naming ito! Mag-apply kayo dito para malaman niyo!haha!;)

the south ave gang!

2008-07-03T10:49:00.000-07:00

Who would've thought that these people can be one of the truest peeps that I know so far?haha!;p Sinong mag-aakala na isa dito ay mag-aadvise na "Cla,if you want punta ka sa pare sa simbahan para magpacounsel.hehehe!" TAKE NOTE: SERYOSO SIYA NUNG SINABI ITO at ako? Napakamot na lang sa ulo! At sino din mag-aakala na isa dito ay ipaglalaban ka ng patayan lalu na kung ikaw ay inaapi ng nakatalikod (ui teka baka may natamaan??hahaha!) at sino din mag-aakala na may haciendero dito na SUPER sa cowboy ang lolo at sino din mag-aakala na may isang super patient listener at komedyante pero seryoso naman pag seryoso mong kinausap?hehehe!;) Let me introduce the South Avenue Gang! Guys, gimik ulit? Grabe kahit gimik o wala alam ko andyan pa rin kayo kaya lang may kanya kanya na tayong mga buhay!hahaha!I miss those days kahit na madalas nun time na yun EMO ako pero napagtitiyagaan niyo pa rin ako!Kulang pa ang gang dito!hahaha!;p

ang NAGDURUGONG PAGIBIG!Bow!

2008-07-03T10:09:00.000-07:00

Magmula umaga hanggang hapon at pati sa work eto pa rin ang naririnig kong kanta "bleeding love" ni

Leona Lewis. Langya! Kapangalan ko pa! Ewan ko ba kung pinagtitripan lang ako ngayong araw na ito

pero sa kahit san ako magpunta sa loob ng malaking mall na ito,yan ang naririnig kong kanta. Wala

lang may naalala lang ako...wag niyo ng alamin kung ano man yun!haha!;p masalimuot nga ba? ahh di

naman..masalimuot lang dahil mahigit sa lima hanggang pitong beses ko ata narinig ang bleeding love

na yan.haha! moan, nakita ko pa na pinost mo yung kantang yun,hanggang sa pagtulog ko, yan pa rin

ang tutugtog sa isip ko.waaah!;p parang sirang plaka o piratang cd!hahaha! pero sa kabila ng LSS-

damn!whenever I hear the said song, I am feeling mushy...mushy lang ha-may naaalala lang ako pero

di na "siguro" importante kung ano man yun!hehe!

Tinatamad akong ipost yung kanta,kayo na lang maghanap nun.amp na pag-ibig yan ika nga ni karen

sa opinyon niya sa kanta!--oo nga naman--lintik!puteekkk!!!yun yon eh!hahaha!basta!yun lang!labo!

haha!

ang bagong blog..kuno!

2008-07-03T09:50:00.000-07:00

YEY!may bago na naman akong blog dito sa blogspot! Sige iadvertise ko lang to mga bakla!hahahaha!;P

bittersweetescape

the beginning of everything

.....

life is different without you...

when i say goodbye... i really mean GOODBYE!

those freakin' 3 words

why do you let me stay here?

the so-called prayer and releasing some $%^&*

OMG!

self-proclamation

feelings nothing more but feelings

the frog!

the tat...bow!

Rencesism

nakarelate daw oh!

fukkin emo mode that sucks a big time!

a prayer...

hangover with milkshakes all these years!

morning shitty blues!

my hang-over for before sunrise...

random act of boredom...haha!

me and the pink hearts

at last!

to all wave ONE!!!

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seasons greetings and welcome 2009!

fooled and stoned

the dress fever...bow!

special message to razrs!

so-called love quote

sweetest november...

x factor

past and present factor!

to my ever gullible friend named SUMMER!

juiciest...

I, not the ONLY perv!

miggy and miguel

the blind item

updates

moral lesson ala sun visor sh*t!

separation anxiety...*sigh!*

when beauty hits the creature (beast)

The New Shift

MASAMANG tanders at lightning

È troppo presto per me a dire ti amo?

two words :)

Who is Mr. K.M?

if I were YOU ??(kung ako ikaw!)

pseudo relationships in connection with pila-baldeng chocolates!

in connection with crayola and davis paint!

tips according to Policious

V.I.P request ng amiga kong si Pola

before sunrise...

WHAT TO DO WHEN CLA IS CRANKY....

si Crayola at si Cla

Pampa with L.O.V.E!

a message to all of my girls!

emo mode ang baCla @ ang mahiwagang mensahe ni tentaypatis!

Words of Wisdom ni cLA

miles away..so so miles away

the end result of boredom!

According to Carl Sandberg

to my besh,kate,seg,davey and eckow!

health advisory plus ultimate blooper mania of 2008--its my shit!

ang bagal talaga...*sigh!*

It's for you,CREATURE!haha!;p

Shits and Convictions--Life!

indie day!

irreplaceables part ii my girls!

yes,it's my vice!keber!

heath ledger's death and my own midnight undefined theory...way BACK!

SAID

luminya po tayo!

the irreplaceables!

the south ave gang!

ang NAGDURUGONG PAGIBIG!Bow!

ang bagong blog..kuno!

separation anxiety...sigh!

ang bagal talaga...sigh!