life is different without you...

life is extra monotonous without you. I just miss having crazy fun times and emo times together even if we look insane or ridiculous! Seggy, best! I miss you! =( Muli na ka! here's something for you!

wait there's more!

and not only that

since we're kids at heart para sa tin yosi na yan!hahaha!:P

I miss you best! bff!!!:) I'm giving you all the lame fun reasons to go home here in pampanga!haha! yehey! uwi na si beckla sa 22!aha!:)

when i say goodbye... i really mean GOODBYE!

i'll write my post in a very vernacular way! tagalog, english o capampangan man yan!la na ko pake! hay nako! I just can't believe that I happened to ditch someone who really mean SO much to me to the point na sinasabihan na ko na yung utak ko napunta na daw sa talampakan ko dahil sa katangahan ko... but then all stories must have their endings. And all sentences MUST have their periods at hindi ellipses.

December 31, 2009 - I was again WAITING IN FREAKIN' vain para sa text nung hombre na yun since it seems that the person somehow left a word few days before that... it was my birthday and i've got to admit that it was my loneliest birthday i've had so far... "MIPAKANANU ya kaya ing buguk???" (in tagalog? napano kaya yung gagong yun?) then my bestfriend told me the very hurtful and ugly truth na in fairness talaga, YUN NA ANG NAGPAGISING sa ken... kailangan ko lang siguro talaga ng bonggang pukpok para dun... madami na daw akong pinalampas.

My so-called lame excuse? eh tinatry ko naman makipagdate sa iba but very unfortunate lang talaga na di nagwowork... (buti di pa dumating sa point na maniwala na ko sa destiny!bwahahaha!)

Getting back, ayun i said NO FORMAL GOODBYES! basta GOOD BYE kung GOODBYE! ang daming beses ko ng sinabing goodbye sa kanya pero wala naman nanyayari... kaya nung dumating 12 am january 01, 2010, DELETE GALORE ang baklita sa lahat lahat! delete galore ko siya sa FACEBOOK, yahoo messenger, sa phone ko, sa email ko, at pati sa friendster na matagal ko ng di binubuksan.

Bakit? Let's put it this way. 2010 na! magbagong buhay na! game over na dapat kung game over. and i have run out of reason to talk to him so why bother di ba?haha! and mas maganda na rin na wala akong naririnig o nakikita tungkol sa kanino man tungkol sa kanya.WHATEVER! HAHA! that's an old school theraphy called IWAS PUSOY!haha! and besides, im super used and was happy even if he was not around... I just hate making things complicated or I just hate the phrase "it's complicated". ayoko lang talaga ng mga komplikadong bagay sa masaya't tahimik kong buhay.haha! and no more reason to hold on...

BITTERNESS IS THE BEST POLICY?? excuse me! hahaha! sa una OO! pero ngayon hindi na! hahaha! after I did those deleting thing, i felt some relieveness within my system. Feeling ko tama lang ginawa ko at dapat matagal ko na daw ginawa yun. and I just happened to discern na ayoko pala sa ABS-BITTER HERBS and kay BITTER OCAMPO!hahahaha!

At dahil dyan may nagtext:

yeah right! that was january 02, 2010 when that "person" greeted me a happy birthday... at siyempre number na lang yun. hehe! at the back of my mind, nag greet pa tong taong to noh eh tapos na special day ko.haha! Oh well reply ng lola? Who's this? and when I got his response.. ayun that was really it. I did not say goodbye as in literally goodbye but Im so sorry for being a ruthless bitch for my response to him... I only did that to finally PUT A PERIOD in OUR story. Kung baga sa school subjects, WE HAVE CHEMISTRY BUT NOW WE ARE HISTORY! LOL!

krayola khomeini (cry cry) ang baklita but i said to myself that it will be fine... sometimes it's good to give up on something because I believe better opportunities will come my way. Yak! pang miss universe?? hahaha!

at least I realized di pala ako ganong ka-tangengot!hahahaha!