fooled and stoned

Love fool - The Cardigans

kanta ng desperada sa lulukis o basta desparada!haha! but i love this song and i bet it was a sound track from Romeo and Juliet starring Leonardo di Caprio and Claire Danes. Side Comment? Hmmm... it is a paawa song! dang! I hate to admit it but I am having a hard time expressing myself in front of that person and that is because of that freakin' ego-trip he might have. SHOOT! Oh there! If that person happens to read this... IM DEAD!

Dear, I fear we're facing a problem you love me no longer,

I know and maybe there is nothing that I can do to make you do

Mama tells me I shouldn't bother that I ought to stick to another man

man that surely deserves me but I think you do!

So I cry, and I pray and I beg

Love me love me say that you love me

fool me fool me

go on and fool me

love me love me pretend that you love me

leave me leave me just say that you need me

So I cried, and I begged for you to

Love me love mesay that you love me leave me leave me just say that you need me

I can't care about anything but you

Lately I have desperately pondered,spent my nights awake and

I wonder what I could do have done in another way to make you stay

Reason will not lead to solution

I will end up lost in confusion

I don't care if you really care

as long as you don't go

So I cry, I pray and I beg

Love me love me say that you love me

fool me fool me go on and fool me

love me love me pretend that you love me

leave me leave me just say that you need me

So I cried, and I begged for you to

Love me love me say that you love me

leave me leave mej ust say that you need me

I can't care about anything but you

Love me love me say that you love me fool me fool me go on and fool me

Love me love meI know that you need me

I can't care about anything but you....

the dress fever...bow!

sa may pantry po to ng office...haha!tarutch!

NANG AKO AY NAG-DRESS NUNG MINSAN!

GIRL NA GIRL, DI BA?

TARAY!

HAHA!

;P

special message to razrs!

my message to my beloved team mates who already became my family in the office...

Guys, you know how much I love you all... It's devastating since hindi na tayo magkakasama... pero magkikita pa rin naman tayo di ba? I am going to miss all of you since I've been with you guys for exactly or a total of nine months and no one can ever replace those winning and even sad moments we shared together... I am so thankful that I have you beside me thru good times and bad... I am going to miss the eat outs, the winning avail moments, the nakaw-picture moments inside the meeting rooms of teletech and within the pantry... The mischevious laugh of tinee, the miss universe smile of rhoda, the sweet-kilig chikas of donna, the humoruous dance of mami joy, the "hi my name is sara" of ney, the make-up sessions during the avail time and even mcdo moments inside the floor na patago pa sa mga erminguard, the so-bastos hirit of Kate, the too much bastos hirit of Kobe, the radio-dj voice of terz (with the Z), the cute skirts and smiles of wie, the arguments between the kikay and the goth of nikita and I, the froggy-michael jackson vids at pijongs of Angela, the soft voice of Gel,and the silence and biglang hirit of rizza, the yosi moments with geck and of course the imitator of Luis Manzano which is our T.L TAM...and many more...

ayan si boss tam! ang ginagaya ni Luis Manzano!hahaha!

yes it will be sad but God has better plans for us on why things happened... We may be parting ways since our team is already dissolved and it is an opportunity for all of us to grow... I'm going to miss all of you guys and of course all of us in the team are going to miss our boss, our mentor, our friend and our brother JONATHAN TAM... Tam, andito lang ang team bobo este team razr! Whatever your endeavors are mararating mo yun because you have been a great person and leader to us in which no one can ever replace you, dude... BALITAAN TAYO dude!!! huhu...

kaya yan!!! tama na... naiiyak na ko! *sigh!* team razr will be a legend, guys! hehehe! i love you, team razr! :) and again i am going to miss all of you...:( BOBO!hahahaha!

so-called love quote

"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived."

- William Parrish (Anthony Hopkins)

Meet Joe Black

I am not pretty sure if William Parrish stated these lines to Joe Black. Apparently, I don't even know if I will believe on this one but what in the hell is love anyway? Why does it make the world go round as cliches had stated centuries ago?? Bluntly speaking, there are different things that people usually talk about or even guilty that they are crazy about some things that happens to be our necessity as humans. These are money, sex and love. The last one (which is LOVE) is the most talked about since we go ga-ga over it. Come on! Anyhow, it is already part of our lives and of course there are some levels and identifications of the said term. (UN)Fortunately, the romantic perspective of love does not apply to me or "wala pa kong natatagpuan..." yun lang yun! Or maybe I was just naive to check if there is really somebody around there to the point that I even try my best to get one person's attention wherein fact, this "another person" deserves my attention...gets? haha! I don't know I am becoming a cynic but I still have my hopes up... Who knows?

sweetest november...

I'm single and you're welcome to change that!

ayan ang banat!

sige pila lang kayo, GORA AND CHANGE MY HALLOWEEN MONTH into a SWEET NOVEMBER... that is kung kaya niyo!hahaha!*landi!*

apparently not only November but forever...that is kung meron nun!??!


Topak mode lang kaya nagsulat bigla...hahaha!

Nah! there are times I think I might bring back the old flame to some of the you know who's and what the F I've been with and through. I missed having someone maybe because it was quite a long time since I last committed myself to a person. Now I am thinking twice, thrice and nth time before I can get myself in to a thing or two since I admit I am hell of a chicken out person when it comes to something way too serious. Apparently there are two contributing factors on why I can't have my-so-called-sweet-november:

• external
• internal

it is external in the sense that I have a lot of selections to choose. he he he he! Selections may not be connected to the men per se but there are a lot of circumstances wherein I myself just decided not to engaged a certain thing that I know I might regret in the end. In short, this external contributing factor is from the outside environment.

Sometimes I just can't help myself but be envy to those people who can face the reality that "hey I can take the risk of being with this person for the rest of my life...ya di ya and blah blah blah!. " Based from my studies (na imbento ko lang base sa observations ko), that person will end up being miserable because she/he overwhelmed towards her/ his emotion or happy because the love is being reciprocated. (or whatever!)

On the other hand, it is internal since I don't want to make the same mistakes all over again. I've been stupid a lot of times and as one of my memoirs and quotes to my bffs, "Sana may mahanap naman akong tamang katangahan sa buhay ko. Peste! At kailan manyayari yun?" Hmmmm... I myself cannot answer that since incidents are very unpredictable. I'm still gullible and sensitive. That is a sad fact but good thing I'm resilient. Thank God I still know how to make a fine line between like and love (kahit papaano!). Guys, come on! I am taking my time- too much time that I think that kind of time and moment is not here but it will be in God's sign. So don't you even dare say that I need a man just to take control of my whereabouts. Hello! I have my own mind and will to do things I want to and to make rational decisions in life that I know I will benefit from it. Now, that is what I am talking about. ha ha!

Maybe it is just a spare of the moment or just a glimpse of loneliness that I am missing having special someone but I don't think I am ready due to some occurrences that I need to focus first. Come on, Clarence! You are one of a heck of a running contradiction. Anyhow, I just need a sleep and I am good to go when I wake up like nothing is happening. Ignorance is bliss if you hate what is happening around you or if it happen that almost all of the people you are with do suck! *sigh!*

In God's time talaga.tsk! And I bet that man will be lucky since as my bestfriend Tentay had quoted, "My happiness is an empire of which you could have been a king, where your smile has imposed its kingdom." --In which I might apply that thing next. haha! and hopefully? Hmmmm... I am going to be his queen. ha ha! *sweet!*

advance merry christmas! and abangan ang susunod na mga kabanata!LOL

x factor

I know that it’s absurd and insane to sound as if
my whole life revolved around being somebody’s ex-
girlfriend. But I can’t help it…that title packs a
pretty strong impact. I am now an official member
of the “loved-and-lost” club though years has passed yet I’m still a current member of the said club. Anyone like me does not want that title but we just have to face the fact that the person we love the most does not anymore want to be part of our lives. To put it bluntly, that person either wants us to be out of their lives or things will never work out as it is that it simply has to END.

I am an ex.

I once loved someone who loved me back. But he
didn’t want to stay… So I got to let go of the love that we once shared. I cried a lot. I spent countless nights questioning myself on what
went wrong, breaking down discreetly so people especially my parents wouldn’t suspect that something was
amiss. I also splurged the night drinking all night long so as for me to forget that kind of misery I was going thru. However, I always woke up having a hang-over and then I am back to reality until I realize it becomes a cycle. It becomes a routine wherein my body longs and seeks for alcohol just to escape and ignore that hurtful reality. I’d reminisce about our happy times and winning moments, then suddenly break down when I’d finally sink in to the fact that he was no longer mine.

I analyzed every single detail of our breakup. I
wrote long messages to my closest friends on line. It was a never-ending talk about my situation. I spent my nights in
tearful telephone conversations and my days in
daydreams where we’d end up in each other’s
arms again. Sometimes he was still my angel, still
my knight in shining armor who I’d do anything for
just to have back. There are times I think of him as
the devil incarnate who broke my heart and brought darkest days and coldest nights in my life which in return, he badly deserves to have his soul burn in hell.

I tried to show the world that I was OK. That I was
over him. That it was fine just being friends. I didn’t
go around with a big “X” on my forehead, nor did I
go around with puffy eyes and a tissue box. I tried
to live my life as I knew it before I met him. People
thought that I was doing great. They heard me
laugh and they saw me smile; I seemed happy,
they said; and I told myself that I was. But in the
solace of my room, where I tried to organize my
thoughts and sort out my feelings, I had to admit
to myself that I wasn’t truly happy. Because I was
still yearning for someone, and my heart still
ached for something that could not be.

Surprisingly, things went better on the latter part. I’ve
changed. Somewhere along the way, I realized
that he wasn’t the only one out there for me. I also
realized that there were valid, powerful reasons

why we split up or we should have our separate lives. And if not for him I will not also be here; stronger and wiser.He’s changed as well — when I look at him,sometimes I still see the boy I fell in love with. Sometimes I think that he’s the same person…he still has the same goofy smile and mischievous
charm that I fell for, and I like to believe that the
rest of him is unchanged as well. But then I take a
closer look and I realize that he HAS changed…
that I don’t know him anymore, not really… not
enough to love and care for him as I once did.

I am an ex.

I’ve loved and lost. I’ve cried tears for the things
that were and that could have been. I’ve wrestled
with intense feelings of love and hate, of jealousy,
of frustration. I’ve simultaneously taken down and
brought up my pride. I’ve tried to rebuild my world
without the person whom it used to revolve around.
I’ve tried to save myself from the depths of
depression and self-pity, and when I couldn’t do
that, I turned to God for help. I don’t know exactly
what I gained, or how much I lost. Maybe someday
it will be all clear to me…and someday I’ll find all the answers to my questions in God’s time… Right now I am glad that I am coming up with the answers why such things happened.;)

past and present factor!

1) Single, Taken, Naked, or Flirt?

~ SINGLE and flirt.LOL!hahahah!

2) Are you happy with that?

~ hahaha! i think so!LOL!

3) Would you still kiss your ex?

~ Why not??!LOL!hahahaha!in his dreams na lang!hahaha!

4) Have you ever had your heart
broken?

~ how BRUTAL and BITTER you want it to be?hahaha!

5) Do you believe that there are
certain circumstances where cheating
is ok?

~ the end does not justify the means though I also believe in karma.LOL!

6) Have you ever talked about
marriage?

~ nah!!!

7) Do you want children?

~ of course.

8) How Many?

~2 or 3?

9) If someone liked you right now,
would you want him/her to tell you?

~ why not??it is not a big deal after all.hehe

10) Do you want someone you can't
have?

~ i think so.hahahah!

11) Have you ever been in love?

~ what??? oo naman.

12) Do you believe in celebrating
anniversaries?

~ hahahaha!i think not anymore!

14) Is it a good day?

~ not really but im gonna make sure to make a way that it will be a good one.

15) What would you say about your most recent ex?

-My dearest "latest" ex, I am unable to hear to you and if you can hear me please never dare to call back at 0915******* or you may dial 1800ASAKAPA for more details. I am disconnecting this call now and thank you for calling ME.LOL!hahahahhahaha!=)

16) Does your ex still have feelings
for you?

~ Do I give a damn?hahahaha!

17) Do you believe in long distance
relationships?

~ hahahahaha!not anymore!

18) Do you believe in love at first
sight?

~ tsk!that is crazy.haha!

to my ever gullible friend named SUMMER!

kailan ka ba madadala??kailan at kailan!!!???