the frog!

this is me kissing the freakin' frog!LOL! (feeling!)hahahaha!

this is a frog...bow!

I never thought I could kiss one new frog again after me and the previous frog messed up due to some issues we had... I honestly hate frogs (literal na frogs ha) but men are always like that... They are like freaking frogs that you should treat and perceive them as frogs. Simply because majority of them are worthless. Ooopss sorry sa iba dyan but I am not generalizing that ALL men are like sh*ts or frogs or whatsoever. It's just one of the misfortunes that I had been making a mistake kissing frogs because I know that they still have a good heart within them, that they might transform into being a prince... Sadly, they are still ASSHOLES!ha ha!

nakarelate daw oh!

jham, tentay, mara, kit, and the rest of the loveless and sawi community, nakakarelate naman ako nung napanood ko tong pelikula na to... ginoogle ko pa mga linyang yan.hahaha! oh my...whatsoever!!!


ngek! talagang nakarelate ako... leche!haha! anyway it's just a sidecomment I made here para kay jham!!!

mga punchline na...

"i need space!"

"Mahal na mahal kita, at ang sakit-sakit na."

how do you move on?

"Ui ano 'yan?"

"Bagong baby ni Popoy"

"Ako naman ang may gusto nito diba? Pero bakit ang sakit-sakit?"

"Ang totoo hanggang ngayon umaasa parin ako na sabihin mong ako parin. Ako na lang. Ako na lang ulit."

"She loved me at my worst. You had me at my best. And you chose to break my heart."


"Ten years from now, ganito parin kaya tayo?"
"Ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen, fourteen, forever and ever!"
"Promise?"
"Promise."

"I don't even know kung tama 'tong ginagawa ko, pero alam ko kailangan ko nang tapusin 'to."
"Basha, mahal mo pa ba 'ko?"
"Poy, I'm so sorry."

When love ends...

"Five years? Itatapon mo lang lahat?"
"Kailangan ko to, kailangan mo rin."
"Pero ikaw ang kailangan ko."

"If kaya pang ayusin pilitin. What if this is really what both of you need? Then just be strong. Magiging mahirap at masakit pero hopefully all the pain will be worth it."

how long should you hold on?

"Five seconds lng. Promise. Five seconds. One, two, three, please, five."

how soon should you let go?

"Not so nice to meet you."
"Malaki lang ang katawan mo pero 'di mo ko kayang patumbahin!"


Mga Pamatay na Linya sa "One More Chance"
I wanna stop wondering what if. I wanna know what is.

But you're asking for too much. Gusto mo mawala na'ko sa buhay mo.

Alam mo ba'yung three month rule, ha?! Lahat ng nagmahal at nasaktan alam 'yun! Kailangan mo muna maghintay ng three months bago ka magka-boyfriend ulit! Ba't ba kating-kati kang palitan ako?! May dalawang linggo pa'ko, eh!

Mahal na mahal kita...At ang sakit-sakit na!

I wish I could talk away all that makes you hurt. But I can't because you won't let me.

Mahal mo pa ba siya?
Ayokong nakikitang nasasaktan.
(She reaches out and softly closes his eyes.) Para kung masaktan man ako, hindi mo makikita...Mahal mo pa ba siya?
(He starts to sob) I'm sorry.


and mga churvalung ganon...whatever! but this line has an impact for me...

"My personal favorite...

"Siguro kaya tayo iniiwanan ng mga mahal natin dahil may darating pang ibang mas magmamahal sa'tin - 'yung hindi tayo sasaktan at paasahin...'yung magtatama ng lahat ng mali sa buhay natin".


hmph!!! yun eh!!yun yon eh!

the blind item

I don't know what else do I have to scatter about this person who is in a way too serious about his life. Here I am again acting like a freakin' teenager (though HELLO CLARENCE, YOU ARE 22 YRS. OLD ALREADY!!!). Oh snap! haha! I am not a big fan of Piolo Pascual and Tirso Cruz at all... Excuse me-- di pa naman ako kasing- tanda ni Nora Aunor. Sh*t! Oopps... first clue na yun! LOL!

Gays and girls, enlarge at your own pleasure!

Anyhow, my eyes are in a heck of cloud nine whenever he passed around the pantry or around the office. Maybe that reason why my eyes are feeling this way is because he is good looking...MAYBE LANG! Tama ba naman gawin kong diary tong blog na to?!! *Sigh!*


I badly confessed that my workplace is very suitable for gays and gay-girls like me simply because there are a lot of good looking guys. Unfortunately, majority of them are taken either by a girl or a gay or a widowed b*tch. ha ha ha ha!

One hell of a confession of a single ladies like me is daan daanan na lang sa pambabalahura, pamimikon, papampam, minsan nachochope pa at pablog blog lang...

The heck! I am not in lababo, excuse me?!!

Curiosity kills the cats. Apparently, that is one of the painful truth. I am a hypocrite if I say that one meeting is already enough for me to stop to dig-in about his personality and everything under the sun and the moon as well. But then just to give you a heads up I got disappointed because I found out something. Whatever are his reasons...bahala na...

And so I guess that will end there. END-though I'll never know since circumstances are very unpredictable.

Who is Mr. K.M?

Just to give you an overview here is my very wafu Mr. Kangaroo Man. Hehehe! Pose pa lang, I'm gonna faint na! hahaha!=p

Alam ko lahat kayo naiintriga kung sino siya, duh vah?? Oh well I'm sorry Mr. K.M, don't worry hindi kita totally irereveal. Wafu talaga ng pose...I lAv it!hehehe! Mwah!=) nah just playin..scroll down below and makikita niyo siya...

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DYANNNAANNN (sfx: drum rolls!)!!!eto siya!hahaha! sorry Mr. K.M I'm still in a sick leave mode and I'm super bored eh I saw your pics, I edit it and since maraming gustong makaalam kung sino ka...pinost ko na rin dito!haha! sorry! don't worry you're identity will not be revealed!hehehe!*peace!* mwah!=)

wala na kong masabi... wag ka ng magpacute dahil wafu ka nga!wag sabi makulit eh! OO wafu ka, tungek!haha!;p

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kung mabasa mo to, bahala ka kung ano gusto mong isipin... o yan libreng edit ng pics for you!haha!;p

kaloka showbiz at blind item pa!

teka...

blind item nga ba??heheh

peste! miss lang kita ulul!=p

abangan...

pseudo relationships in connection with pila-baldeng chocolates!

There are times I like having this kind of relationships wherein the couple takes time for them to take a good or bad look at each other before they head up to the next level. I also hate it because you cannot simply demand or feel anything perse it is because "hindi naman kayo!" And a bad thing about it is that, that person can simply ditch you away just like a snap without any proper closure. I was once guilty of this; ditching one person who did nothing wrong to me--it is just a simple reason that I don't want to prolong such relationship and admittedly, those are one of the advantages of having a pseudo-relationship. BUT I ditched most of the guys simply because they were born to be an ASSHOLE, airheads, or fuckin' gigolos and maniacs!haha! Bottomline is they are not worth it. Yes, I WAS a professional swinger but that was BEFORE. haha! Anyhow change topic!I was engaged to this kind of relationship simply because I think men were born to be a such. "wala pa SIGURO yung nakakatapat ko!"

eh kung ganitong kagagwapong mga boys ang pipila...NAKO!hahahaha!

Anyhow, sa hinahaba-haba ng panahon ng aking pananahimik eto para akong manok na nilalapitan ng mga palay!!!yeahh! Sige ONE AT A TIME. PILA LANG PO!

At siyempre may nauna sa list of selections di ba? ampotah parang box of chocolates lang..."mamili ka ng mga tsokolate dyan, iha!" Minsan naiinis ako dahil tinatanong ko si batman kung anong gayumang meron itong tsokolateng ito na gustong-gusto ko...kaya lang kahit anong gawin ko sa takdang panahon ko pa pwedeng kunin! Ewan!

Kung baga sa sapatos hindi pa ang takdang oras at okasyon para ito'y suotin at hindi ko rin alam kung magiging maganda ang fit ng sapatos na iyon sa akin...

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Nakakainis minsan na maging single pero masarap din in a way dahil nagagawa ko gusto ko pero mas nakakainis ang maengage sa pseudo-relationship na mega long distance pa na hindi ko alam kung magwowork nga... Tama siya STEADY MUNA... sa akin? oh sige STEADY HITS MUNA... Sabi niya ok lang daw kung magkaroon daw ako ng "iba" dito. SOBRANG OK LANG DAW. Oh God tama ba naman yun?? Sa bagay may point siya kasi hindi naman KAMI kasi nga pseudo lang! Kahit masakit sa loob ko sinabi ko na "ah ok sige ok lang din sa akin kung may iba ka dyan..." ampotah! CLARENCE IKAW BA YAN???!!!EH IKAW ANG DAKILANG SELFISH NA SELOSA NA AT BRATINELLA PA!PRANING PA!!!!

Ang totoo? Hindi ko rin alam ang pumasok sa isipan ko nun. Basta after ko nasabi yun natulala ako at biglang napahirit na PUTANGINA TANGA! Pero ano magagawa ko hindi ko naman ATA pwedeng bawiin mga sinabi ko... I admit madami na siyang nadaanan at maraming beses na rin siyang nadapa kaya niya sinasabi na AYAW KITANG MASAKTAN pero ang totoo? SIYA ANG TAKOT MASAKTAN. Quits lang kami. PAREHO NAMIN AYAW MASAKTAN... at isang dahilan na dito ay ang LAYO. Naiintindihan ko naman siya mga amigo amiga KAYA LANG---eto na naman ako, RUNNING CONTRADICTION MODE NA NAMAN... ayun ONE TIME ok na ko but then may narinig na naman akong sad news about sa kanya kaya ayun CRAYOLA to the max ang lola niyo! Wala nga siyang iba pero mas mapapalayo naman siya at lalu naman di ko na ata siya makikita...:(

Ewan ko kung bakit nabulabog mundo kong nanahimik. Shit! Nagiging matalinghaga na ako mga amigo amiga!haha! Lintik na pag-ibig yan parang kidlat lang ayon kay brownman revival. Sino nga ba ang tinutukoy ko?? At hanggang saan nga ba makakarating ito??

Abangan...


P.S
Long distance pseudo-relationships + an idiot cranky pseudo-girlfriend is a bad equation.

si Crayola at si Cla

WHO SAY'S I LOVE CRAYOLA??

Shit kahit sino ayaw magkacrayola ever to the max na super kahiya coz I was at the mall getting all cranky and almost out of my normal sanity. Windang ang lola mong si Kate. Sakto washable pa man din ang crayolang nasa picture. I don't usually make crayola in the public its simply because its soooo nakakahiya! Duhhh?? What I did is a freakkin' social suicide but what can I do hindi ko na kaya eh. I just want to burst out dahil sa mga infos na nakakarating sa ken and siguro overwhelmed ako. *A BIG BIG SIGH!* I look like a kid na hindi binigyan ng laruang gusto o ng candy na gustong kainin. Shit! I admit its the very first time na nanyari to and yes, I colored the street with crayola crayons when I was fuckinn' drunk and high--way way back and before (ampotah redundant na iyan!)!haha! Don't ask kung ilan na ang mga bloopers and miseries ko dahil infinite na yan,inday! At namamanhid na ako. *hay!* And do you ever wonder why I colored SM MALL with crayola??AND TAKE NOTE: MATINONG TODO si CLARENCE--not drunk or crunk. High lang siya sa yosi na ubos na baga niya! At bakit??HAYYYY!!!ANG BABAW!As in!

Dahil sa crayola ever ang bakla at emo mode and windangers mode pa na parang higit pa ang pendulum at panahon at allergies kung atakahin ng bad mood. B.V (Bad Vibes yun mga tol!).hahaha! Admittedly, di ako ang nag-iisang makulay ang buhay at hindi lahat ay dahil sa sinabawang gulay! Pakshet!Harrrrr!All quiet si bakla kahit nagpapacute sa kanya si Miguelito Jose ay wa epek pa din dahil dehins niya talaga type yung lulurki na yun (pwede vuhh???). Nanibago ang lahat dahil sa sudden at nakakatakot niyang katahimikan. Truth is, mahirap kasi magsalita. One of the valid reasons is that hindi ko alam kung paano ako mag-uumpisa and pangalawa- ayokong magsalita ng hindi maganda dahil bad vibes ako nun. One of the weaknesses I have is I'm having a hard time expressing myself in regards to what in the F I really feel. I'm afraid. I'm scared. I'm afraid if I tell this person on how much I feel for him, it will spoil everything that we have though on the other hand, he admits he feels the same but not into that extent-that is why there are times I tend to play guessing games in which alam ko hindi dapat ganun kaya minsan yun din ang reason on why I am cranky--ANG MANHID NIYA KASI! But the question is, what if I don't? I mean what if I am feeling beyond the things that I should feel? I know! I AM IN A HELL OF A STUPID PERSON! I have my reasons why but unfortunately I am having a hard time to explicate those things since it happened so fast and again, its hard to fathom. I made crayola its because I'm pissed about myself and I hate all of these things I am feeling.

aBANGAN ang susunod na kabanata...

ang bagal talaga...*sigh!*

ang bagal talaga ng panahon. yung mga taong gusto mong makita matagal pa bago mo

makita.Ewan! Ano na naman itong nanyayari sa ken. Honestly hindi ako sanay na ganito, kung

kailan lumipas na ang panahon at hindi ko naghahanap ng matitipuhan, mukhang doon naman

may dumarating. Ang labo di ba? Sa bagay malay nga natin...Ika nga ni Bob Ong, ang tamang

bagay saka tamang panahon wala na ring saysay kapag wala na yung tamang tao. Ang tao

pwedeng mag-adjust pero ang bagay at panahon hindi.---Isa lang naman siguro ibig sabihin nito

nasa sayo lang yun kung igagrab mo yung mga opportunities o pagkakataon na nasa harapan mo.

Lubusin mo ang panahon. Pakshet!AKo ba ito?haha!;p Back to the topic... May tao akong gustong

makita........basta yun na yun!hahahahaha!;p Iniisip ko lang, ano kaya ang mga manyayari pag

nagkita kami?hehe!Sa totoo lang walang nakakaalam kahit siya hindi niya rin alam.haha! Bahala

na,Lord! Hehe!:) Wish to see you soon or next year?? hmmmm...You know who you are...hehe!

It's for you,CREATURE!haha!;p

a line from carrie bradshaw and my personal response to it.:)
i made this blog around last 3 or 4 months ago...i just decided to repost it today...:)

"Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. And if you're very lucky, a plane ride away."
-carrie bradshaw-

Now with full acceptance, I am finally letting go... I can't simply spend my time thinking about a certain person who doesn't care at all or is selfish and narrow-minded to believe on such hearsays... A friend was right its not really worth it so I guess that is it... By the way,there is a constant change, even emotions do change.Tam (my friend) was right, feelings can be so dynamic that it can change within a snap! I guess God has already answered my questions to my answers why certain things happened. He has another plan and I bet it is a better or the best one (and it goes the same way with that person). I may not know since all circumstances are unpredictable. At least, I can confidently say to all and even to the supreme being that I have loved this person with all my heart. And if in fidelity matters, God knows I didn't betray him to anyone else! If you are reading this I am telling you that! Maybe we are really not meant to be. It is all maybe or perhaps because both of us never know what happens next. I never thought you can be like that- judgmental in a way since you never ask anything with regard to the things that you hear. It is so unfair and you didn't seem to have the objectivity or an open-mind to listen. You just rely to the things you first heard. I guess I am right. You never did loved me anyway because if you really did, you are not going to be that SELFISH. Truth is I hate myself for grieving for someone whom I know doesn't really deserve it. You wanted to be loved,right? I did that to you and sadly until now, I still do have those feelings but isn't just going to be like this to be stagnant in my own emotions? I tried reaching out but then you were refusing me. I guess time is already enough for both of us to know such things. There are so many things I wanted to say but then I am having a hard time to explicate those thoughts into words. One of the things that I can say right now is both of us were already hurt and we can' t anymore take back on what happened. With regard to the past mistakes that I did, if those things matter to you and you magnify me based on those stuff-if it makes me less of a person in your own perspective, well I guess that is not my problem anymore. It only means one thing--YOU ARE SELFISH and I guess most of them are right--you are not worth it. I deserve better and it goes the same with you. There are so many questions that seems so hard to find the answer.Right now, I just wish you good luck with all your endeavors...I wish you to be happy and hope you can get what you truly deserve. God bless!

BTW:

it is NOT ANYMORE MY FAULT IF THE GOSPEL TRUTH SAYS THAT YOU ARE NOT ONLY HORRIBLY UGLY OUTSIDE BUT ALSO INSIDE! GOOD THING I MADE A RIGHT DECISION! THANK GOD AS ALWAYS!;)

oh by the way, you might get sluggish in reading this because I know you don't read....AT ALL!!!haha! KINDLY EXERCISE A LITTLE BIT OF YOUR BRAIN before you hit the gym, hunny!:) matamaan PANGET!HAHAHA!;)

heath ledger's death and my own midnight undefined theory...way BACK!

tsk tsk!!!sorry guys and girls!may he rest in peace!but...he's HOOOTT!






I also felt the same way like other people felt about this news. Shocked. It is an irony but we usually

felt this way when someone at this young age dies especially if it is a prominent person or a celebrity

though on the other hand, we don't even know the person (personally) who passed away. We

symphatize or even emphatize for the close relatives or loved ones that person left behind thru his or

her death and sometimes I even see people being a bit maudlin about it. Quite funny for me though I

understand the fact that death is one of the most devastating and frightful matters to talk about.

Death, as we all know due to unwritten laws (whatever you may call it), is one of the things that

must not be joke about. Anyhow, back to Heath Ledger!"What??Awwww...That is sad.", those are

the precised words I said as far as I can remember. As I opened my account on this site, the

bannered news posted by a friend really caught my attention to the point I was thinking that it was

only probably a practical joke. Due to my so-called skepticism or stupidity, I even searched if the said

news was really true. Damn, I liked Heath Ledger when he did the role for the Brokeback Mountain

and 10 things I hate about you!haha!"Tsk...Sayang!" Based on what I've read, Ledger was found

dead inside his apartment in New York. Police says they found a prescription of sleeping pills near his

body but there was no obvious sign that he committed suicide. In short, his death was probably due

to drug overdose. It was an untimely death as anyone have stated. By the way, he finished a movie

Batman in which he played the role of Joker (which was played by Jack Nicholson before). Wow! I just

can't help comparing Heath to a local actor who also died on the same age, on the same reason

(o.d), at the same time finished a movie (with his ex gf/fiance) before bidding goodbye to all his fans

and finally go to neverland!hehe..;pOne more thing I've noticed and I guess it is a nice topic to

confute about. Most and or all of the people are guilty of this doing when a certain person died; We

are always stating all the goodness that the person did when he was still living. Oh no! Let's put it in

an exagerrated way. Aside from reminiscing every moment that we have on that person, we are so so

guilty of praising that person like he or she was a saint. I don't know if I am hell right about it but it's

just one of my keen-observations from the people I usually encounter. One more irony, most of the

people tend to grief more (or more affected) about the death of that celebrity or that prominent

person rather than their dead relatives or even loved-ones. In the end, they say things as if they

knew the said person very very well. Kindly bear, I'm just creating my own midnight undefined

theory.haha! What if we change or just break the said stereotype and make it the other way around?

Just come to visualize or imagine it. What do you think will be the outcome if we curse that prominent

personality or a politician for being so fuckin' crooked? or curse the highest ranking military general

who killed so many people to strive its hunger for power? or a celebrity who acts like a

primadonna/spinless bitch or a prominent person who was born an asshole? what would it be?... Nah!

I can't imagine it if you ask me but I guess it will be fun. haha! joke!=p Seriously, I can't quite really

imagine it. Its "probably" because I do somehow know how to value a certain person not only when

he or she's forever gone but also when that person is still alive and kickin' ass despite the facts and

some bad conjectures i hear or might hear about him or her!haha!=p Or (maybe) just like any other

people, I do conform with values to these matters though at times they are being hilariously

exaggerating on it. Or I am just one of the people who have a spectacular feeling of happiness about

that person's death because of two things: he/she is not anymore capable of doing something that is

bad or worst and second is that person deserves to rest in peace (*AMEN!*). hehe!=p i pray for

them!*Amen*!=)

ang NAGDURUGONG PAGIBIG!Bow!

Magmula umaga hanggang hapon at pati sa work eto pa rin ang naririnig kong kanta "bleeding love" ni

Leona Lewis. Langya! Kapangalan ko pa! Ewan ko ba kung pinagtitripan lang ako ngayong araw na ito

pero sa kahit san ako magpunta sa loob ng malaking mall na ito,yan ang naririnig kong kanta. Wala

lang may naalala lang ako...wag niyo ng alamin kung ano man yun!haha!;p masalimuot nga ba? ahh di

naman..masalimuot lang dahil mahigit sa lima hanggang pitong beses ko ata narinig ang bleeding love

na yan.haha! moan, nakita ko pa na pinost mo yung kantang yun,hanggang sa pagtulog ko, yan pa rin

ang tutugtog sa isip ko.waaah!;p parang sirang plaka o piratang cd!hahaha! pero sa kabila ng LSS-

damn!whenever I hear the said song, I am feeling mushy...mushy lang ha-may naaalala lang ako pero

di na "siguro" importante kung ano man yun!hehe!

Tinatamad akong ipost yung kanta,kayo na lang maghanap nun.amp na pag-ibig yan ika nga ni karen

sa opinyon niya sa kanta!--oo nga naman--lintik!puteekkk!!!yun yon eh!hahaha!basta!yun lang!labo!

haha!