self-proclamation

I have to admit I am pretty procrastinating. I want to do things that will have best results during the end of the day or whatever. The problem is I always have this thing wherein courage is backing out of the picture thinking I might mess up again.

My status right now is still floating. Clueless. However, I am very glad that I have to face the things I escaped two or three years ago and face those people who had a VERY different perceptions against me. Anyway, I don't give a damn since I am not going to earn a dime from them or WHATEVER! At least I've already done the 1st step, right?

"Mabait ka na ba?" asked by one of the professors I've talk to. I just answered "Yes, matagal na po..."

Things changes but sometimes it's just a bit devastating when you left a bad mark that might last a lifetime and you never know if that kind of perception will still change. Does it matter? For people like me and my gayest bff we don't care at all since what matters most is we don't mess up anyones ass for no reason at all.

I've badly messed up my life way back. And as they say, you learn your lessons the hard way. For me it was the VERY HARD way. Now, I was just thinking twice thrice or 100 times before making a decision. Weighing those things thinking which is NOT good but questioning each scenarios what in the hell is the BETTER thing to do so that it can have a BETTER consequence/s in the future. I am still imperfect and I am not even attempting to be perfect. Being procrastinating is not that bad especially if you're just thinking about better things to do before doing it. And the reason behind that is because I just don't want a f*cked up life-again. GOT it??ha ha!